you said it best when you say nothing at all.

PUBLIC HOLIDAY (:

2006-01-10T12:23:00.000+08:00

HELLO .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIC !
daddeh, you're 18 already yeah. legal so you should act like your age and dont make me complain to you all the time :D and and and, YOU'RE LEGAL SO REJOICE :D

okay, i dont know if i should go to xuewen's chalet. haha. it sounds like it will be damn wild, so yeah wo bu zhi dao. and i am supposed to be like going to bathe now, but i am super lazy. but i still need to go pass nic her present man. hohoums. and she's with keith who was making some funny sound on the phone just now, funny. hah. and i am sorry maple ): kim's in town too, with kathi i think. i dont know laaah. everyone seems to be in town man. and the weather looks perfect for sleeping. hoho.

okay, i am off. i really should go bathe or something now.

GIVE IT TO ME BABY.

2006-01-08T17:59:00.000+08:00

HELLO. okay, someone said i havent been updating and i am the type who updates like thrice a day or something. haha. allrighties, i am gonna start from friday.

lyanne's tuition was cancelled so we met at holland then we walked in to acs international. we saw kim's friend on our way in to the basketball court, watched kim dance and all. haha. but it started to rain and lyanne and me had to run in and out from the canteen just to watch the performances. we met kim's friends, kathi evan shunyi and the rest i guess. evan's a nice guy (: he's funny too, haha. and kim was trying to bluff everyone that lyanne was her twin and sadly, everyone was too gullible to not believe what she said. haha. we left about eleven plus, her parents fetched us.

hahah omg, lyanne chua's crazy. she just took a picture of my display picture of ____. OMG LAH LYANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNE. okay saturday, i went to the dentist and i have to put bracess. i dont want man ): its so costly. nothing much happened on saturday, i was too lazy to go town. and i talked to kim on the phone most of the day. tuition class today, and i concentrated alot during tuition hahah. bumped into kim with kathi and kristi at taka, haah when i was shopping with my mum.

and the food is calling for me at the dinner table so goodbye :D oh kim, dont do it anymore ): you know what i mean, the own name thing. yeah , dont anymore ):

KING EDMUND : D

2006-01-06T18:04:00.000+08:00

i watched chronicles of narnia just :D

KING EDMUND :D:D:D:D hahahah. i like king peter toooooo (: but i prefer king edmund when he is older (: haha. and i still cant believe, i am vice chairperson. like ?!?!?!?!? well, its alot of responsibility : X but i guess i'll do my utmost, whats there to be afraaaaaid. okay, maybe alot of things. and i love watching the part where edmund fights for peter, as well as the part when the message of aslan's death was brought to edmund and peter. i like the loyalty showed between the two brothers :D and narnia's awesome, if you havent caught it then you're an idiot so please go watch it :D

i'm going for kim's campfire later on :D i hope i reach in time for her performance though. lyanne's tuition teacher is so evvvviiiiiillllll. i hope she has diahorrea tonight for going to lyanne's place so late, : \ aslan's so cool okaaay, i think he is the biggest warrior king ever ever ever. and its finally the last day of the weekend, but time seems to be passing real fast. hmm. well, i better get going, i have more scenes to watch in narnia :D:D

YE QU

2006-01-05T20:41:00.000+08:00

They would try to tell me something. Oh, but I was hearing nothing. When they said you was just playing me. I didn't listen. I didn't want to. You couldn't find a blinder fool.

today was allright. heavy content for school as usual and tomorrow's gonna be much worse, but i am planning to go for sean's campfire tomorrow. so yeah, i hope the ones i ask can come as well. anyone else interested? left school with wanru, vinee, kelly, joy and celine. went to acs to pass kim her sleeping bag which gave me a back ache for the whole day. hey y'all, thanks for accompanying me :D :D then celine and vinee left, the rest of us went to breko's. i like potatoe with salt, hahah. mm, cabbed to wanru's house. people say that when you are feeling at your most high and most happy, you tend to feel ultra sad later on. i was very high, laughing alot in the cab just now. and saying super silly stuff man. god, it felt so mean girl. and i want to watch narnia :D had a shrink talk with joy, hahha. so it wasnt exactly a shrink talk, but wells it was a productive one :D

i always feel alone, as in like i will always be facing the tides on my own. its paranoia, i hope. my mum just gave me this chocolate from germany and eating it made me feel a tad better (: whaliao, fucking newbies in my school pisssing me off. god, i am going offline. goodbye readers (:

liu xing yu :D

2006-01-04T14:34:00.000+08:00

HELLO READERS, I MISS SEAN KAI KRUSH LIKE HELL.

her blog's post is so sweet (: and and i was thinking of her almost the whole day. sean kai! if you're seeing this, i just wanted to let you know that i love you. and since you're gonna be home much later today, you dont have to call me tonight. rest is most important for yourself to recover :D so yeah, i wouldnt be expecting a call from you yeah.

i felt sleepy during chinese and e maths today. english was embarrasing, oh man dont talk about it. miss lee made me stand in front of the class for so long to write on the board and she says i cant write four from the bottom to up because it defies gravity. like ehfneijvbtjb ?!? hahah. and everybody was laughing at me, i was laughing at myself too -_-" english was amusing though, haha. humhum. i was smsing throughout recess and only ate wedges and drank ribena. social studies was allright, i think i'll like social studies cause its kinda like history. and li ying is damnit funnaye man.

she's the new blanko girl, who has white hair. hahha. she laughs at everything okaaaay. and history was good, the content was damn heavy. so today, i'll do my maths homework and revise the history text. i neeeed to understand the history text man. mm, poa was okay. i got to know julie, the new girl. and she has super duper nice handwriting, she comes from thailand and she is a whiz in maths mannnn. she explained to me maths :D hahah. and when i was walking home, i saw kelly's father in the car. he is so scarry, but he's funny. hahah.

i decided to come home early prolly cause i came home at nine pm yesterday and i needed some shut eye today. also, there's revision to do. mm. oh man, i want to hear my dear sing liu xing yu, so you better sing it for me soon okay? hahahhahahha. and wanna betcha they'll fight for you? HMMHMMHMM. i dont mind hanging on the phone as long as you need me to as long as i can hear first hand gossip about ____ after you talk to him. hahhaha xD okay i was kidding. HOLLY MAMA, I JUST RECEIVED A DELIVERY! from simann, a gigantic lollipop and a small lollipop and a billabong purse. ohman ohman, SIMANN'S SO NICE :D THANKYOU!

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL.

2006-01-03T21:30:00.000+08:00

heyhey, i just reached home. chocolate marshmallows are addictive.

its the start of the new year and seeing those newbies come in kinda remind me of the past when i was just like that. ignorant to the school's hidden rules, the different things i'll pick up and the respect i should show to the elder ones. the secondary ones are just like that, just to single out a significant few. it kinda pisses people off looking at the way they can stare hard nonchalently at seniors when alot of the seniors hate it.

i hope they learn. yeah (: mm. my class strength is kinda small and the canteen was super crowded during break. not much changes to the timetable in terms of starting and ending of school. but its upper secondary life for most of us now :D i have no idea if thats any reason to rejoice but so far, things been looking good. oh fuck, duh they have. its only been a day man, haha. okay, sean almost made me cry during poa. i miss her like shitloads lah, now that she is like in another school. mer charlene and me went to holland village to meet kim at 5o clock. we were sitting outside the school allrights and sean looks swell in her uniform (: and and and, ____ IS goodlooking, haha. for once, i have better taste. i know, you dont have to rattle that constantly into my ear.

went to breko's, and had a shared sundae with mer. i was imitating how much she resembled the arcade creature where you have to throw balls into her mouth you know. that silly thing? hahhaha. mer looked like that, and she cheated when she wrestled with me. kuku banana lah. charlene and mer left near five then chess and sihui came. wanru came soon after then we talked alot. man, wanru still makes me laugh like shit. and when kim left, i was kinda sad in the cab. mm eh yeah, and wanru kept asking me not to else she would. mm, i came home.

my sister's friend was saying something mean about our daddy so i took over the keyboard courtesy of my youngest sister who was more than glad to let me help her talk back and i said.

ORHORR, YOU TALK BAD ABT MY DADDY. MY JIEJIE SAW ALREADY AND SHE IS GONNA COME KELLOCK TO SCOLD YOU. ORH HORRRRRRRRRRRRRR. YOU DIE ALREADY, YOU DEAD CHICKEN. ORHORRRRRR. YOU WAIT OKAY, MY SISTER SEND MONSTER TO HAUNT YOUR DREAMS TONIGHT. YOU WAIT OKAY, MY SISTER CALL YOUR MUMMIE AND TELL HER YOU ARE A RUDE GIRL GIRL. ORHORRRRRRRRR.

i seriously didnt want it to sound funny but threatening so she can lay off my daddy. but guess what, my sister laughed like shit okay. so be itttt. i just wanted her to know i'll be there for her if irritating people bully her, thats what elder scary sisters are for. to scare away those pests, haha. okay maybe not. hahahah XD okay, so i am not scary. dont rub it in okaaaay. i need a haircut, and and and i miss kim already man. READ THIS AND GIVE ME MY HALOSCAN MSG ): ): ): ): okay, i am off. i need to pack my bag for tomorrow, watch out school. i am gonna work harder this year :D

TO MY DEAREST BABYCAKES.

2006-01-02T21:31:00.000+08:00

THIS WHOLE POST IS DEDICATED TO SEAN KAI KRUSH XD

SHE IS SINGING THE LIU XING YU NOW. HAHA, BUT I AM HAPPY WHENEVER SEAN IS HAPPY.

I AM HONOURED, BY YOUR DEDICATION AND DONT WORRY, I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU OKAY. SO YOU BETTER NOT VANISH LIKE A FBI AGENT, BECAUSE I'LL TRACK YOU DOWN WITH YOUR COMPACT MIRROR LIKE THE PEOPLE IN TOTALLY SPIES. SO DONT WORRY, YOU WOULDNT LOSE ME AND I WOULDNT LOSE YOU.

HELLO SEAN KAI KRUSH, THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE FOR ME. FOR UNDERSTANDING ME AND FOR GOING OUT WITH ME SO MANY TIMES. I DONT TAKE YOU FOR GRANTED, AND I WILL NEVER DO SO. AND ONCE YOU'RE GONE FROM STC, I'LL MISS YOU EVEN MORE AND WHEN I MISS YOU EVEN MORE, I WILL WANT TO SEE YOU SO PLEASE MAKE SPACE FOR ME OKAAAAAAAAAAAY? I LOVE MY BABYCAKES. AND I'LL SUPPORT ANY DECISION YOU MAKE, AS LONG AS ITS GOOD AND IT WOULDNT HURT YOU.

I JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW, THAT YOU'RE GONNA BE MISSED ALOT MAN. SO IF YOU SNEEZE ALOT IN SCHOOL, DONT BLAME ME OKAY. AND AND AND, YOUR ERM HUM WILL BE CONCERNED WHEN YOU SNEEZE ALOT SO DONT TRY TO WORRY HIM OKAY. AND REMEMBER YOU CAN ALWAYS ASK FOR ERMHUM'S JACKET WHEN YOU ARE COLD. PLEASE KEEP ME UPDATED ON YOUR NEWS OKAY AND LETS CALL EACH OTHER REGULARLY ELSE I'LL START TO MISS HEARING YOU SING LIU XING YU ON THE PHONE.

AND THERE ENDS MY POST FOR SEAN KAI KRUSH, MY BELOVED BABYCAKES. TAKECARE DEAAAAR XD SOMEDAY, I HOPE TO SEE A PERSONAL POST AND A SWEETER YOU (: MY SWEEEET MSGS ?!?! HAHAH, I LOVE YOU KAI (: I AM NICE TODAY, I KNOW :D THE POST IS IN BLACK AND MORE BLACK, COOL LIKE YOU. HAHAHAHAHA.

2006-01-02T19:44:00.000+08:00

OHMAN, SCHOOL IS FRIGGING HELL STARTING AND KIM'S NOT GONNA BE THERE TO ENTERTAIN ME AFTER SCHOOL. I AM SAD, AND I DONT WANT SCHOOOOOL.

okay, i have cherngshing and sumay and the others. so it wouldnt be half bad (:

screwed and fucked up.

2006-01-02T15:04:00.000+08:00

kai bu liao kou - jay chou

they were once my dirty little secrets, held tightly bounded in that small little purple book. i dont know whats better, the fact that you're denying though you know the truth or the fact that you let me know that you know. its just how screwed up my life really is and i didnt even have a room to cry in when you're messing around, maybe trying to find more fbi files of my criminal records.

hiding under my trusty windbreaker that has been there for me err, every hour every minute. even when i go to the loo, it comes with me. and i had to hide under that while crying like a fucking fool, making choked up noises and sobbing so hard that noone could understand a fucking word i said on the phone. i didnt dare to call anyone but in the end i did. those two people, they were the ones that were there for me all the time. its hard to imagine life without them. and even if they didnt say anything or do anything, i am just happy because their pressence is what that counts.

i wasnt even able to comprehend what i wanted to say. and when i force those words out, they were choked by. and when i keep trying, it becomes worse. eventually, i hang off. if only you didnt has to clean up today, then maybe that purple book wouldnt have served as such a temptation to flip open to read. and maybe i should just get one that can open only if i mutter the password or maybe i should get one that activates with my fingerprint. but you know what, maybe i should just throw the fucking book away so that i wouldnt ever have a fucking life from now onwards.

thanks alot, for the misery. and dont bother to say you're welcome when i let you out of the door. oh, and please show yourself out before the door slams on your screwed face. goodbye readers, its been a long day.

HAPPY 2006 LOVELIES XD

2006-01-01T02:53:00.000+08:00

HEY HEY HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006 XD
AND HAPPY NUMBER ONES DAY SECOND ANNIVERSARY :)

celebrating was fun. picked up sean, then went to meet charlene and mer. we walked down to cine, and sprayed juli jo lyanne sarah and sumay. hahah. new year was funnnn. sasha and ziyi came later on and then the whole group of us celebrated together. chess and jocelynn were there as well. sprayed everyone with foam like mad (: but it was fun spraying. maple and elton came down then sean and me sprayed them. linsin and me just decided on a status day for us :D 20th 20th! i cant wait for the 20th to come :DDDD and on with my super short summarised post, after a while charlene sean maple and me went to elton's place.

elton's funny though. i thought he was pretty intimidating at first glance. we left after a while though. the three of them wanted to head to sentosa and i had a 6am cruise to catch so i needed some shuteye. passed them cash and then alighted at the busstop. rents' were downstairs, i guess they were afraid something might happen to me at this odd hour. they didnt ask much, just told me to get some sleep when i reach home. new year's eve was fun, with random people spraying at each other though there were tons of apnn. shit, i got influnenced by chuasihui. sasha's reaction to apnn people were funny though. town was happening, the life man xD

i better go get some sleep before i conk out on the morrow. zhiwei is gonna be there so i will prolly rattle my head off to her again. its allright, she wouldnt tell anyone. i want the cruise trip to be a blast :D so goodnight people, my clothes are soaking with soap. double eww man, and i wanted to wear that shirt tomorrow. che. leave a tag, dearies. off i go :D

DEDICATIONS!

2005-12-31T13:41:00.000+08:00

okay, my dedications. eveyone that played a part on 2005, thankyou for the memories. its locked in here :D

sean kai krush - babycakes :D you're the first. thanks for everything, i do almost everything with you and you have always maintain a special place in my heart. though you still owe me my sweetmeassages, my seven roses and my testimonial, but i guess you'll pretend you never saw that sentence. ohwells. we've had our minor ups and downs and came out stronger in the end. words cant describe how much you mean to me this whole year and i am so gonna miss you when you're gone. all i can say, is that you're been fantastic spectacular and awesome. i look forward to more outings and more meaningless talk with you. everything will change for the better, just you see. just leep having faith and hope yeah? you know that i'll always be here for you and you can always come over and play with my neighbours and laugh at my mum. i'll treasure the many little moments. ily (:

cherngshing - hey bitch (: i thought about you and i realize you're just like the bestie that i lost, you understand me more than many people and you know, you rock. like totallaye, i love teasing you but you must know they are all harmless fun. and we've been closer ever since godbergtan made us science partners, so i guess thats one thing he did good. you listen to me rattle nonstop during our double periods of science and you offer a listening ear (: thankyou for everything, from the laughter to the secrets. i do tell you everything and i know you can keep them for me. i love you, bitch (: you make the stars shine tonight man, rock on.

melissa tong - heyhey sunshine lollipoprush! you're prolly one of the only angsanians that i am still close to this year. and yeah, you're my sticker and we will sing the song stickwitu next time together okay? it will be much better than hearing barbie girl. i remember everytime we go out, i'll enjoy myself alot because you're there. and you've made my life alot sweeter being my lollipop and sticking by me through everything. you know you mean alot to me allrights. i'll never forget any moment i spend with you, so you better not (: ily lolly.

wanru - sugardiamonds. we got to know each other through chinese class at the start of this year. i remember sitting with sihui and you sitting with joy behind us. i remember laughign insanely at your jokes all the time. and til now, you're the only one with the ability to make me laugh until i cry. and oneday, i hope i can make you do so too although i am truthfully, not a very funny person. sugar represents sweetness and diamonds represent exquisitness. you've brought both of them into my life and make it alot more pleasant (: i always divulge secrets in you, because i always feel comfortable. thankyou for everything, and more outings soon when you're back? i miss you alot alot.

chuasihui - atoms :D what can i say. my mom since secondary one (: thanks for being there yeah, your pressence matters and your irritating jokes too. listening to you can make me go crazy but you know, i bet i already did. i love poking fun at you, and making you ask me to shutup. more rejects conference soon yeah? please dont sleep till the wee hours. its bad for health, you pig. hahah. i look forward to spending more time with you next year.

kelly - hey son (: you know, you've been the one there for me the whole of 2005 during school times. thankyou for walking me home dozens of times and being concerned when i was sick. sending me to the sickbay when i felt unwell and all that. and also, for the many things you've given me. you can never never ever be replaced by anyone else. thanks for being the special special one (: i love you.

krystal - hey ex-wife and ex bestie (: you were always there for me mostly during the first part of the year, and though we drifted, i am sure you'll be able to find someone who understands you much better than i do. i darent say i didnt make mistakes when iw as close to you,. i am just happy for you, when you're happy. bowling with you last year had been fun and oneday, lets catch up yeah? i look forward to seeing you up and about. just dont do silly things aye? mm lovelove.

wenna - prince (: my knight in shining armour. your words, made an impact in my life. you were there when the darkness fell, and you were there to lend me a hand through it all. needless to say, you've been the one holding me up when i needed to cry. the one who's shoulder i cried on when i was upset. we might not contact each other often but i just wanted you to know, that i'll always be here for you just like you've always been there for me. the burden isnt just for you to carry, share some and i'll be able to understand you much better. lets not drift next year, and write letter still. i miss your letters truly. when the world caves in, i'll be there to block the rocks from hitting you. ily prince :D

novelyn - hey lameboat :D though we've only gotten closer during the holidays, i feel as though i have known you for ages. you're the boat and i am the ship. and i love you (: thanks for being there, no matter what happen and for scolding me when i needed a thrashing though sometimes your scolding are just not firm enough. haha. i love irritating you, fur (: and lets still go out next year so that i can irritate you with my talkings. words cant express how much you mean to me yeah, you rock lameboat :D ily.

olivia - honey (: you mean alot to me, everything you do screams stupidity but i love you. home econs, we chat behind madame lim's back and try to hide from her sharp ears and failing miserably. i've told you many things and i guess you have. thanks for the memories (:

phyllis - lovely everything :D yay, i love you. you're my star, my moon, my everything. thats why i treasure the time i spend with you and our long conversations. basketballing with you and the others have been fun. and you've let me realize that sometimes, there'a always someone there for you. so thanks, for being that somone. rock on phyllis (:

kimberley - lolstwin :D you've been rocking my life with your silly laughter and talks. i'm glad that i've gotten to know you and i remember the many phone conversations we have all the way past midnight. i love you, and i've enjoyed many times with you, foolish girl. more doses of laughter soon? :D

pamela - sweetheart (: just like a swetheart, you made things alot sweeter in my life. and the huge eeyore you've given me is still sitting on mybed, thankyou for it. you've made big moments in my life worth smiling about. thanks yeah (:

samantha - rocker :D thanks for being my rocker, you ROCK. words cant express how much you mean to me, takecare babe.

gen - rubbish (: hey, our rubbish pledge? haha. we must still talk rubbish even though we will be in different classes next year huh? you know that i love you, so keep the rubbish going :D

zhihui - angel (: you always pop out from nowhere and make me laugh. thanks yah, for flying by like an angel when i needed you. do have a blessed newyear (: you're missed.

linsin - babyboy, you're so cute. thanks for the memories, you've planted many amusing and memorable ones in my heart. i would like to see you soon! lovelove -

huiyan - popcorn (: we dont talk often but i want to let you know, that yeah i love ya (: have a blessed new year and dont forget to stay in touch.

jaey - ungrateful sweets :D i remember the daisy we both gave each other and the silly things you say all the time. you are not forgotten. have a hapy newyear :)

maybelle - pretaye ladaye (: we've had our ups and downs but still managed to resolve them by starting anew in the end. thank you for the many memories and sweet messages (: i've lost them when i lost my phone but io havent lost you, :D

nicklaus - daddaye (: haha. you still owe me my golden rose mannnnn. you kuku head, disappearing dodobrain. hahhahah. lets go out soon yeah, i havent seen you for like many many years okay. you bobobuttock. you know i still love you, you asshole. hahha. and yeah, keep smiling and being stupid yeah. thats what makes you real special. hahaha xD

sumay - number one! remember when we went into the nc-16 movie, red shoes together? and didnt dare to scream cause noone screamed? thats my best memory with you. tomorrow's number one day and i hope to see you soon (: i love my numberone, you're irreplacable.

joy - drops head partner and di :D heyheyhey. i miss you alot okay, you better come back like nowwwwww. hahhaha. then we can go out together. i miss you truckloads, joy kuan. ni kuai dian huay lai lah. hahhaha. i love joykuan :D

sophia lee - eh mosquito (: si wen zi. you make me laugh, period. hahha. and where's my letter?!?! dont pretend that you've already given it to me and it was me that lost it. haha. i hope to be able to see you in my chinese class neat year, you dumbo. hahah.

lyanne - icecream icecream :D lets have icecream dates next time okay? and i'll hold tissue so that the fried icecream wouldnt dirty your jeans or your bag. hahah. ily :D

not to mention, there's felicia, geraldlyn, rachel yang, rachel tan, amanda tan, von, jiabao, juli, jo, natasha, katrina, cornell, ruth, simann, vanessa low, tia, rachel chan, lorraine, victoria, jagdish, charmaine, rachael matthews, rachael wee, zhaolin, kimchick, resa, michelle and many more.

and for the many other dedications, i am just a little to lazy to type them out. it doesnt mean i have forgotten you, its just that i want to to and bathe. yeah you know, that you mean alot to me. so have a happy new year (: and dont forget to smile :D goodbye readers, leave a tag man.

2005-12-30T23:16:00.001+08:00

YO YO WANRU!
PLEASE BLOG AND LET US KNOW WHAT TIME YOUR FLIGHT IS SO WE CAN PICK YOU UP. PLEASE BLOG, WANRU. AND LET US KNOW :D I MISS WANRU LIKE CRAZY.

OKAY DONE (:

-ZHIXIAN

ILY ):

2005-12-30T21:32:00.000+08:00

HAHA GAYGAYGAY, lyanne and juli are getting married again. BABUSENGCHIPALAPACHIP MAN, HAHAH. woops that totalllaye doesnt make any sense at all. hahaha. MY HAIR IS BLACK LAH, LIKE BLACK BLACK JET BLACK RAVEN BLACK EBONY. WHATEVER, ITS JUST BLAAAAAACCCCCCCCCCCK. i want my purple red back mannnnnnnnn. ):):):):): and i want to attend lyanne and juli's wedding, being the ringholder again. HAHAHA. YAY :D HAHAH.

went out in the morning with my mum, sisters, aunty peng, alex, kirsten, nicholas, esti and tei. haha. its the first time i name them all out. mm. we went to parkway parade, sean joined us awhile later. she kept saying my mum's damn funaye. i just think my mum's silly, and mum suggested if she wanted to come on sunday's cruise with us. i dont think babycakes want to ): hahha, its allright. after that, she went off to meet charlene and priscilla. i went home with the others. nicholas peeeeeeeed on me when i was carrying him around ntuc. i almost slippped and when i looked up, he was chuckling at me. goodnesss, hahah. he is superduperduper cutttteeeee. some random woman thought he was my kid, my baby i meant. ITS LIKE WFBVJANVQNNN ?!? i dont plan to be a single mum responsible over a two month old mohawk baby. haha, though he is pretty cute. haha.

dyed my hair black at the salon. alex got a haircut, he looks like a rockstar now. hahah, just like he wanted to be. hoho. and when i came home, kirsten wished me happy new year. hahahhahah. damn funnaye. alex was teaching her to say happy new year, haha. okay after i dyed my hair, sean called me and told me something. than i went cfeeerhjiobvgjtrjb ??!? okay, so i didnt get to ___ ____________. whateveeeeer man, babusai. went down to cine to meet charlene, priscilla and sean. sean was sad ): cheeeeer ups babycakes, i'll get you a happy meal soon okay. dont be saaaaaaaad ): we're supposed to spend new years eve togetehr, welcoming the newyear so i hope to see you tomorrow. haha.

walked to taka. and laoshi treated me to chicken skin (: THANKYOU LAOSHI. then walked back to heeren, laoshi and priscilla went home. sean and me went into heeren, walked about then we took neoprints. haha. the machine was freak gay man, screeeewwwwweeeeed. hahah. then sean dropped me home, thankyou thankyou :D:D:D okay, i want to bathe. stinky clothes and screwed up black hair. i am offfffff (":

newlyweds.

2005-12-28T22:58:00.000+08:00

HEY HEY :D

juli and lyanne were married in galilee tonight! hahah. with sean as the best man, mer as the priest and cameraman and i as the ringholder :D hahah. it was damn funnaye, its a video saved in lyanne's camera. congratulations to the newlyweds :D

yay, amelia is in the house comittee toooo :DDD i cant wait for the house practices to start. and i'm kinda dreading and looking forward to the new year. i'll be on the one-day cruise, sailing to nowhere. hahah :D okay, and i'll blog about today now.

i just came home from town. cabbed down in the afternoon to meet mer and sean at far east then we proceeded to stroll about town. sean bought her stuff which were a pullover and a pair of shoes. her shoes were awesome (: walked about, blablahblah. then we went to nydc to have a meal. it was pretty much a walking about day, so yeahh. not much happened though. at night, met lyanne and juli coincidentally after they had their dinner at dont-know-where. we walked about then ate at galiee. after which, the wedding took place. haha. mer was making us laugh like crazy because of her silly face expressions. haha.

okay, i am lazy to blog alreaaaadddy. where's novelyn wanru and sihui. i miss themmmm. allrighties, sean is supposed to call me tonight and i hope she doesnt forget again. YAY, TWO BAYE PARTAYE TOMORRRRRROW. HEEEE.

2005-12-27T18:17:00.000+08:00

i've cooled off :D:D
i cant wait for sec two baye's party :D
look two entries down for the details for the party :D

my ramblings, the longest ever ever ever.

2005-12-27T12:30:00.003+08:00

candy striped love tinted with a spicey taste of mint. wrapped in a fabulously silky ribbon clinging lacily around the bittersweet sensation ; where happiness exists in dreams and nightmares live in reality.

i hope many can make it for the 2baye gathering (: i am really looking forward to having fun and snapping pictures. catching up with the others, laughing and enjoying the day there.

i hate being taken for granted. you say you'll call back but you didnt. i guessed that it was merely an excuse for you to hang off, or maybe you were just too busy to bother about me. smses left unreplied from weeks till now. i dont need to go through the same ordeal like the past when i was close to another girl. history never fails to repeat itself in the most crude manner. below that facade of smiles, there lies a crawling pit of snake-like lies. fuck it all man. i use the excuse that i am moodswinging all the time to avoid facing in this kinda situations. i would rather back down and apologize even if it wasnt my fault. it has always been this case. i rather, you dont know.

the only thing i am looking forward to now is the party at ashley's place. nothing can stop me from enjoying myself with the ones who were always there, 2baye. i love everyone of them. my pretty ladaye, maybelle gave me a champagne glass with scented flowers and a candle. i like the fascinating smell, it brings forth a wave of peace. thankyou maybelle :D and novelyn, thankyou for the awesome day yesterday and for the neoprints and turtle :D i love you fur, even if i was irritating you the entire walk from plaza singapure to heeren. you know i love youu (:

you say i've changed, now look at what i have to say to that. and to alot of things that seem to be happening our way. look at you now, you havent changed abit. i've never had anything against you, never. except for one thing i detest about you is how much you like to talk about yourself and nothing but yourself. i dislike the way you boast about how many people you have to back you up and how many hundreds thousands millions of goodfriends you have. i dont have to know that. and to think about it, i have been listening to this kinda crap for the past few years? i dont know why i havent been able to detect your flaws until that came into our lives.

suddenly, they stood clear like spots on a cheetah. like pigs in mud, like stars in the sky. i'll always be second best next to you and it wasnt because of that we drifted. it was because, i couldnt take much of it anymore. you can say that i have changed, so be it. but can you deny the fact that you have changed as well? maybe all we are meant to be in this lifetime is just mutual friends catching up once in a few months at a cafe. thinking back on the 2hours phone calls we have more than once each ngiht, they were worth remembering. thankyou for the memories and only after that tenpage email you've sent to me than i begin to understand.

i wouldnt mention what you wrote, its just between us. between us, we need two hands to clap. and when we hit at different timings, we dont get a sound clap. thats what happened to us, we fell apart. due to time, we drifted. and maybe now, you've found someone who is willing to listen to you more. someone who is more understanding than me, someone who is more like you. i made alot of mistakes when i was with you, it wasnt your fault. i just didnt had a clear view of what i need to do, had to do or want to do. sometimes, the past isnt worth looking back when everything has filtrated to memories clammed shut in a album.

had a talk with zhiwei at her place last night during the family gathering. we've known each other for our whole lives and we might only talk alot during family reunions which happen a few times a year but i never cease to feel most at ease when i speak to her. we can talk about anything under the sun, every little thing. we can spend ten hours talking and it wouldnt be enough. i dont know how to describe, but i need that comfortable feeling when i talk to you, knowing i can trust you and not have you accidentally spill my beans to others. i know sometimes its hard, but i would appreciate if you'll let me know, the truth. even if it hurts like fuck.

i was supposed to go out with sihui but she had to go out with sumay so i decided to stay home. i had far too many outings in town and its time for me to tone down a little. i havent had a best friend since you, because i am afraid of the same thing happeneing again. its been months, and i havent been able to forget. you've given me memories that are worthy to be treasured but i cant ignore that inferior feeling i have when i am with you. it might come as a shock, but maybe everything i do is shocking now. to you, to everyone. lets just keep all the memories we had shut in this book and let fate decide if we're meant to be close like before.

mm, sorry readers for the extremely heavy content for my post today. i did alot of thinking and happened to type everything down furiously. these are just my thoughts, mine alone. so yeah, please ignore this if you think i am psycho or going through the time of my month even though i am not. this post wasnt just reffering to one person, maybe just a few from paragraph one til the last. its been tiring on my head typing all these, i am off. goodbye, leave a message on the haloscan wouldnt you? :) where's wanru and the rest of the rejects now. sigh.

i need comfort ):

2BAYE CHRISTMAS PARTAYE!

2005-12-26T13:34:00.000+08:00

YO YO YO YO TWO BAYE GIRLS! CHRISTMAS PARTAYEEEEEEEEEEEE! READ READ READ!

CLASS PARTY AT ASH'S PLACE ON THE 29TH OF DECEMBER! FROM NINE AM TO THREE PM. BE THERE OR BE SQUARE, THERE ARE FOUR COMPONENTS SO FAR. THE FIRST IS THE GAMES. SWIMMMING GAMES AND ALSO, DRYGAMES ONLAND. HAHA. ASH WANTS ME TO LET EVERYONE KNOW THAT SHE'S OPEN TO ANY GAMES SO PLEASE SMS HER ABOUT IT OKAY? :D ASH'S THE ONE INCHARGE OF THE GAMES PART.

EVERYONE IS ASKED TO BRING A PAIR OF EXTRA CLOTHES TO CHANGE IN BECAUSE WE'RE GONNA SWIMMMMM. ITS PART OF THE GAMES. AND ALSO, A PRESENT! JUST ONE. AND RECYCLED MATERIALS TO DRESS UP FOR THE FASHION PARADE LATER ON WHICH I'LL TALK ABOUT IN MORE DETAILS.

SECRET SANTA IS ONE COMPONENT, EVERYONE BRINGS ONE PRESENT NOT TO EXPENSIVE, JUST WORTH FIVE DOLLARS PLUS WILL DO. AND WRITE YOUR REGISTER NUMBER ON THE PRESENT, THE REST YOU'LL GET TO KNOW ABOUT IT ON THAT DAY ITSELF. HAHAHAH. WE'LL HAVE A SANTA CLAUS SACK WHERE EVERYONE'S PRESENTS WILL FIT INTO THAT HUGE RED SOCK :P THEN YOU'LL PICK PRESENTS FROM THE SACK LIKE A LUCKY DRAW. SOUNDS FUN? YOU BETTER COME THEN. HAA.

POTLUCK! EVERYONE IS ASKED TO BRING FOOD OKAY? OLIVIA IS IN CHARGE OF THIS COMPONENT SO PLEASE LET HER KNOW WHAT FOOD YOU'RE BRINGING SO THAT THERE WOULDNT BE TOO MUCH FOOD OF ONE KIND. THERE MIGHT BE A MSN CONFERENCE TONIGHT SO PLEASE COME ONLINE AND EVEN IF YOU ARE NOT, WE COUNT ON THE 2BAYE PEOPLE TO SPREAD THE WORD! CAUSE EVERYONE IS INVITED :D

THE NEXT COMPONENT IS THE [DRUMROLLS] ... FASHION SHOW! HAHAH. EVERYONE WILL BE GROUPED AND A REPRESENTATIVE WILL BE OPTED FROM EACH GROUP TO PARADE :D YOU'LL HAVE TO BRING RECYCLED MATERIALS SUCH AS FABRIC THAT YOU DONT WANT TO USE ANYMORE, TRASHBAGS, AND THE ESSENTIALS LIKE SCISSORS, SCOTCH TAPE AND STRINGS. ANYTHING YOU CAN THINK OFF, JUST BRING IT ON (: ZHIXIAN WHO IS ME, WILL BE IN CHARGE OF THE FASHION SHOW AND ONCE I SORT OUT THE WHOLE EVENT, I'LL GET BACK TO YOU ALL FOR MORE DETAILS. MEANWHILE, PLEASE SMS ME FOR ANY ENQUIRIES. WE'RE PROVIDING YOU GLITTER FOR YOU TO SPRAKLE THAT NIGHT :DDDD

SO PEOPLLLLLLLLE. PLEASE COME TO THE PARTY YEAH? ITS NEVER FUN IF THERE'S JUST A COUPLE OF US. AND LOOKING UPON OUR HARD WORK ORGANISING, YOUR PRESSENCE IS JUST ONE THING THATS ESSENTIAL ON THAT DAY, OKAY TOGETHER WITH CLOTHES MATERIALS FOOD AND SUCH. OH AND AND AND, THE JUDGES FOR THE FASHION SHOW ARE OLIVIA ASHLEY AND ZHIXIAN. PLEASE BE PRESENT ON THAT DAY OKAY, AND PASS THE WORRRRRRD! :DDDDDD

BANANA AND MUSHROOM CONVO.

2005-12-26T12:27:00.000+08:00

EVERYBODY PLEASE READ THIS :X
charmaine is in blue.
mine's in purple.

Trying out my fangs, she's a ghost, a silhouette says:
i got att to this girl in sec1 and i'm gonna break up with her in sec5
. Trying out my fangs, she's a ghost, a silhouette says:
wanna know who
/ ` the fear of being alone overwhelms ' says:
huh?
/ ` the fear of being alone overwhelms ' says:
okay.
/ ` the fear of being alone overwhelms ' says:
i am losssst.
. Trying out my fangs, she's a ghost, a silhouette says:
okay
. Trying out my fangs, she's a ghost, a silhouette says:
i got attached to this girl in sec1
/ ` the fear of being alone overwhelms ' says:
uhhuh.
. Trying out my fangs, she's a ghost, a silhouette says:
i'm gonna break with her in sec5
/ ` the fear of being alone overwhelms ' says:
UHHUH. WHY?
/ ` the fear of being alone overwhelms ' says:
are you att to her now?
/ ` the fear of being alone overwhelms ' says:
or are you gonna be?
. Trying out my fangs, she's a ghost, a silhouette says:
wanna know her name not
/ ` the fear of being alone overwhelms ' says:
okaaaay.
. Trying out my fangs, she's a ghost, a silhouette says:
her name is theresa
/ ` the fear of being alone overwhelms ' says:
-.-
/ ` the fear of being alone overwhelms ' says:
you're a moron.
. Trying out my fangs, she's a ghost, a silhouette says:
HAHAHA

WHALIAO, CHARMAINE WU DESERVES TO DIE A HORRIBLE DEATH MAN. HOW CAN SHE TRICK MEEEEEEEE. YOU WAIT, BANANA. I'LL MAKE SURE MUSHROOMS ATTACK YOU IN YOUR DREAMS TONIGHT. PEEEESH.

logcakes!

2005-12-25T20:25:00.000+08:00

HEY HEY.
i am halfway through my christmas dinner at my neighbours place. ohman, there's tons of fooood okay. chicken, turkey, mashed potatoe, coleslaw and wine :D and there's gonna be a humongou log cake for dessert paired with huge scoops of icecream. this is badddddd. hahaha, sinful delights. merry christmas everyone, enjoy today :D

back from malaysia!

2005-12-25T17:16:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey.
i just came back from genting/kuala lumpur! hahaha. and the trip was fun. i have no idea what i am gonna do later, so yeah maybe i'll stay at home or something. its been quite a tiring journey. and i am talking to my lovely now :D she's the best to me okay, i feel at ease when i talk to her. its been a tiring 7hours from genting and i doubt i will be going anywhere today. maybe a family dinner with my neighbours and the kids, alex kirsten and nicholas. i was supposed to go meet number one and sihui but decided against it. it will be kinda weirddd going there. novelyn teoh is so nice mannnnn, loook at her blog. she's super duper sweeeet.

i have christmas presents that i havent given out. and i am lazy to blog about everyday in malaysia. i missed the rejects a tad too much and now wanru's gone too. i'm sad and the rest seem to be always busy. someone update me on the happenings mannn. every night i prayed for the rejects and many other people (: allrighties, on with my summary of my trip.

first three days were kuala lumpur. shopping at klcc, berjaya times square and mid valley mall. all were fantastic shopping spots but i kinda spent all my money on christmas presents for those i could think off. rejects, kimberley, maybelle, numberone, lyanne, jo and juli if i am not wrong. i didnt had much cash to shop for presents and it was not easy to find stuff so yeah.

genting for the next two nights was awesome mannn. haha. met yewting, xiuling and family there. genting was super duper cold, it was 10degrees? and it was super foggggy. we didnt take much rides on the first day. the second day was more fun, we took pictures in the mist and did some really ridiculous actions. hahah. look at this.

damn kuku okaaaaay. my god, we were supposed to look like criminals man. hahah. and yewting suggested us putting our hands on our heads but i went against that. hahah. public ehhhh. yewting scared me during the rides, he kept making me scream for nothing. haha. but he was entertainment :D and his girlfriend must be one lucky girl. he saw stc hockey people when he went to penang for his hockey matches. haha, so cool. christmas eve, we were on the roller coaster when the crowd infront of the stage shouted merry christmas (: i wished alot of strangers merry christmas. haha. please dont tell me i am mad, i was being spontaneous. some wished me back :D hahaha. i want to grow tallllerrrrr, hahah. i am not tall enoughhhhh. reached back the hotel at about 1am, slept immediately.

7hours drive home then i carried nicholas. he was sleeping man he is damnit cute. hahahha. loook at thissss.

hahah his mohawk is standing, HEE :D and i have done alot of reminsicing in malaysia. its time to actually wake up, time aint gonna wait. it never did and i would rather catch the last train than miss it and regret my decisions forever. mm, goodbye readers. leave a tag wouldnt ya :D merry merry christmas !

i love novelyn teoh :D

BINTAN :D

2005-12-19T22:45:00.000+08:00

homan, i can lesser tags when i have a haloscan than when i have a flashbox ):

i am back from bintan with sean! :D :D but i am going off tomorrow to malaysia :( :( but i am feeling a bit psyched about the trip because i wanna go shopppppping :D and christmas shopping for tons and tons of people (: TEEHEE. ohman, i like lyanne's hand bag, so niccccce (: and son is in somewhere near malacca now. i miss her alot okaaaay. and i need to shop for alot of people, rejects numberone son di laughingpartner honey sugarrush prince lovelyeverything sumo and i forgot, i'm stressed now. i just finished packing for the trip, tiring ): i packed within half an hour ehhhh. hahahha. not bad for a start, since i usually need a full night or day.

okay, i just saw something funny in the testis and i dont know if i should be laughing or crying. damnnnnn. hahaha. HOMAN. okay, on to the bintan trip. yeeehaw (:

day one. we went to take the ferry from tanah mereh ferry terminal. we saw fawn there, hawhaw. mm. 45minutes to bintan ferry terminal then 10minutes bus ride to the lobby of the hotel. we took a buggy to our house :D heeeeheeee. sean and me slept one room, my rents' one room and then my neighbour the other room with alexander and uncle brandon. my sister had to sleep in the living room ): haha, i just asked her how its like to sleep in the living room. man, i feel damn baaaaad. we slept most of the rest of the day then we poooled. after pooling, we went to the beach to sit on the rocks in the middle of the beach. the beach view was awesome. went back to leisure centre to swim in the pool. then dinnered at home, my family bought tons of food to eat. haha. off to oleh oleh! hahah. the night market where sean bought her adidas jacket (: i wanted one, but there was just one left.

day two. went to beach. kim and me built a wall, haha. it was funn just digging so much, :D tafetr the beach, we headed for the pool again to tinse off all the sand. there wasnt much sun those days. there was actually expected showers that weekend. so i didnt get much of a tan. a little darker, but not obvious at all. pheesh. back to the resort. at night we played the water game. damn funnaye, i was losing alot. and i kept drinking all the water and vomitting everything out. it was horrible. haha. kim fell illl though ):

day three. brought kim to see the doctor there. the medicine cost a bomb man ): irritatttting people, tourist prize is so costly. then later in the afternoon, beach again. this time with uncle brandon, uncle khoo and dad. every single one of us over there except for sean went digging for clams. we found two plastic bags full of clams that can be as huge as palm size. it was a fruitful one because i found quite alot and i wasnt loser after all. hahahha. then went to crash some tides with my sister and uncle khoon. the tides were super strong that day, the undertow was powerful. one of the tide made me forward roll under the water, hah. after the beach, uncle khoon uncle brandon alex zhixuan and me headed for the pool to clean ourselves. had fish fingers for a slight snack before dinner and swam about. it was fun :D uncle brandon left that night. pooled again and saw someone who looks like someone's bestfriend. then played basketball at the arcade :D it was spectacular. ahhah.

day four. our last morning here, ): had breakfast then we sorta lazed around abit and drove about in the buggy before checking out at half past noon. hmm. there wasnt much to do. so sean and me walekd around the lobby area and then went up the bus at one plus with the rest of my family. bused to ferry terminal and the bus ride made me reminsce about alot alot of things :D and how time seems to be passing so fast so fast. fast forward to the ferry ride. reached singapore, telephoned the rest of the rejects and realize they were all with each other. after changing at my place, we cabbed to town. met up with the rejects, saw lyanne juli and jo at galilee. then ate banana fiesta :D hehe. the night was rather short. went to the arcade, saw shanna and co. then saw natlong. didnt do much at the arcade then at close to ten, cabbed home with juli and lyanne.

the banana was a distraction, it was cute :D hahha. okay, i am feeling giddy. havent taken a rest since i got down the ferry. off to bed :) 7am for malaysia tomorrow, i am shacked. goodnight and see you all after christmas. oh and thanks babycakes, for making the trip an enjoyable one too. love ya. leave a tag readers D:

driving myself crazzy.

2005-12-15T23:23:00.000+08:00

three traces of scars, webbed inbetween blood marks.

i lie awake.
i drive myself crazy, drive myself crazy.
thinking of you.
an understatement,
i let you go baby.
i drive myself crazy.

its getting into my head, melissa tong's blog song. sorry for making you worry for no rhyme or reason, and thanks for the concern. same goes to prince wenna, novelyn, wanru and sihui for the sweet message (: xiexie. i am going offline. and i am letting nature take its own course. my life needs some planning starting from right after i come back from my trips. someone, send me the sec three express booklist ):

paranoia eats me alive.

2005-12-15T20:40:00.000+08:00

i am paranoid, i admit.

its getting harder for me to breathe. i begin to loathe outings in three, i always feel like i am the third wheel. the one that shouldnt be there, the one that came because her pressence played a part as the final one who made things less awkward when the two didnt had anything to do. i told you i was paranoid. i was supposed to be the shrink, i guess i am the one who needs one. just like in the show prime, where the therapist needed a therapist.

shan hu hai makes me cry. i hate the feeling of being alone. its like darkness, only worse because it eats from inside. i myself have no slight clue of what the hell i am experiencing myself. its murdering my own soul.

i am off to mount faber, to stroll and let the tears flow. goodnight people, and goodbye. i am off to bintan on the morrow. and i am not sure, if i will be able to awake by the time i come back from mount faber. the rest of the family's out, so i shall be gone now. goodbye.

WOOPEE.

2005-12-15T13:04:00.000+08:00

DANCING IN THE MOONLIGHT :D

LAST DAY IN SINGAPORE. OUT WITH WANRU LATER, MIGHT MEET AH SI MER AND SEAN. goodbye readers (: i neeeed to go enjoy myself. hahahha (:

DANCING IN THE MOONLIGHT (x

2005-12-14T21:37:00.000+08:00

HELLO :D
i know i havent been blogging and i am the type that blogs every single day. so yeah, i havent died. i know you're happy, hahaha. allrighties, today was rather eventful.

i love my prince like crazy. thanks for being there for me today. just that sentence mattered alot to me. and they'll never know. it would be hard to go through all these without you around. thanks, my shining armour (:

leaving in two days time (: for bintan with my family, my neighbours and SEAN KAI KRUSH MAN. hahahah. we're going on a holiday, going on a holiday, going on a holiday :D hahah. i really cant wait, i just packed my bag today hohohums. i dont wanna know ):

woke up at eight in the morning then i cabbed down to sean's house after getting a box of chips more :D haha. watched the cool guy and meteor garden (: wanru came over after we finish watching the cool guy. we went to westmall and ate at swensons. sean and me played jurassic park and ohmygod, it was damnnnnnnn fun okay. we were screaming and prolly spent around 10bucks just completing the entire game okay. with wanru runnning to the counter to and fro changing money. hahah. it was damn fun :D happiest. we also played daytona 2, where the cars will move. hahah. i got second (: hee.

cabbed back to sean's house for one episode of meteor garden. they discovered my weak spot ): dinner after that then novelyn came for a split moment. bused home with wanru and nobel. i went a little too high in the bus, laughing all the time. hahha. then i was singing the singapore song that kim sang at dinner. after that, it was mamamia. my parents just told me that we're going jb tomorrow, and i got super irritated while shouting that i didnt want to go. now, i dont need to go (: at least i hope i dont. hahha.

ohman, coolguy is so cool man. and he is coming back tomorrrrrrow. jc IS BETTER OKAY. i was looking at the acs year book and browsed through my year's primary sixes in 2003. and i spotted familiar faceeeessss. hahahah. i wish kimberley was here to see this :D haha. i like coolguy's room's balcony mannnn. hahha, its a splendid view from up there. mm, i am off. i dont fee like blogging anymore (: hahah. goodbye readers :D

TUO DIAO TUO DIAO!

2005-12-11T00:00:00.000+08:00

HEY HEY HEY :D

i am back from town. i just realized that i always blog at midnight or in the wee hours of the morning. its celine's birthday on the 10th as well as babyboy's ~ hahaha. so technically, its already over. hahha. met nobelle at tiong then we trained down to celine's place. number one met us outside then we went to her house. celine's living room is so nice :D hahah. the cake was spectacular man. coffee bean cake shaped as a star :D hahaha. laura was there too. then laura, sumay, nobelle and me sang birthday song for celine :D joy came, ate the cake then we went off to town.

sumay and celine spoke in the cheena cheena tone. damnit funnaye. we went to zara at taka then laura picked up her cheongsam. laura went off, then sumay novelyn and me went to try on clothings. i like that top i sawww :D hahha. we walked to cine to meet jo and juli. celine's birthday balloon and the gigantic pooh was so nicceee :D hahah. it was humongous ehh. saw shanna, wynne and some others at cine. then bumped into babycakes, sunshine lolly, atoms and sumo :D hahah. went up to arcade after lunch at pasta mania. after arcade, we went to K BOX :D:D:D

K BOX WAS SO FUNNN. HAHHA. SUMAY AND JO VERSUS JULI AND ME. SINGING COMPETITIONS IN JAY CHOU'S SONGS :D IT WAS FUNNNN. HAHAH. then i dont know, was a little upset about certain things so i went to the restroom with jo, returned to the room and i was allright. I WANT JAY CHOU LEH. HAHAH, IF I DONT HAVE JAY CHOU, THEN I WANT SHAWN YUE. wanru and sean are always fighting with me for draco malfoy, whatever man. they can have him for all i carrre. i will prolly have him next time when they get tired of him, hmphf. THEN WE PLAYED TUO DIAO BY ALEX TOH :D HAHAH. MOST OF US WERE LIKE JUMPING LIKE CRAZY ON THE SOFAS. the people present were ; celine joy sumay jo juli lyanne chuasihui sean mer and me. mer left about eight. WE PLAYED TUO DIAO AGAIN AT EIGHT PLUS, WE WENT HIGH :D HAHA. i like jay chou's YE QU :D HAHAH.

left the place about nine plus. went to arcade, then later went downstairs. jo, sumay, sean and sihui went crazy in town. i was walking with nobelle and joy :) we headed to galilee and liverpool was playing against middlesbourgh or middleton. i cant recall. but liverpool's morientes scored twice, he's a star talent that shouldnt be kept in liverpool mannn. come manchester united :D hahha. joy nobelle sihui sumay and me went off after sean and jo were gone. sumay sihui and nobelle shared cab. and joy di sent me to the busstop before giving me a hug then she cabbed home i guess. waited for the bus like super duper loooonnng. hahha. then here i am, at home.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NOVELYN! SWEEEEEEEEEET SIXTEEEEN NOW! <3<3 i love you lameboat and fur :D and i love tuo diao nowww. hahah <3>

we will rock your house :D

2005-12-10T00:30:00.000+08:00

ahahahah hello everyone, i am bacccck :D

shopping in the daytime. it was productive, my mum went mad. she went on a major shopping spree, her credit card is gonna burst this month. haha. nydc for lunch, i like the cakes :D nydc reminds me of wenna when she told me it stands for new york diabeties centre. i laughed like crazy. man, i really miss wenna. where are you, prince? ):

i walked the whole of chinatown while talking to sean's father. it was tiring but i survived, my legs are strong still okay (: hahah. her brothers were in the car too, lyanne was there. then we picked mer up, and mer sat next to nudgenudge :D i think he sings well. hahha, random random. went for the concert, it was quite nice (; easy on the ears and eyes. i quite liked it. but towards the end, i was rather sleepy. mmm. we were randomly staning outside the theater, and mer saw some flying bungee jump. hahah. i kept saying she was hallucinating, hoho. then later, mer and me went off on our own. lyanne and sean went home in sean's father's car with her brother(s). we walked all the way to near kellock area, talking :D i never stop talking when i am with sunshine lolly rush, she makes me happy when we talk nonsense.

we took a bus to tiong bahru area, and bought drinks at seven eleven. we walked and talked, was supposed to have supper but decided not to in the end. bused home and then here i am, sean got off the phone with me a couple of minutes ago talking about something really happy (: i am ecstatic for her, its been long enough (: now all their wishes have come true, my one about me and **** **** getting together will never come true okaaaaay. if it comes true, i'll treat the rejects to a drink each man. its pretty imposible in comparison to theirs you see. i am not despairing, havent died yet :D and nobelle didnt reply to my instant messages prolly because she is maple-ing away. lameboat, i feel like killing you nowwww. haha. okay, i am off. i want to call somebody to talk to. if not, i'll be off to bed.

i want to go out tomorrrrrrrrow :'( but i cant seem to find someone to go out with.

shake that sexy body ;

2005-12-08T20:53:00.000+08:00

OH MAN. my mum just placed a box in front of me and said, your christmas present. AND SHE FREAKING BOUGHT ME A PHONE! LIKE TWO DAYS AFTER MINE WENT POOF. OHMYGOD, cuermhcuiwecvuibgibrjkvjkgjkbjkg. i always said i like this phone, the blackandredandwhite phone since last year. and she like BOUGHT IT FOR ME. OHMYGOOOOOOOD. damnit, i sound like novelyn. hahah. first, its the daddy-bought-me-an-mp3-and-i-went-ohmygod syndrom. then now this, (: i love my parents man, i feel bad though (: i feel bad whenever people give me expensive stuff. OKAY PEOPLE, MESSAGE ME YOUR NUNBER AND NAME PLEASE :D

today's allright. wanru was waiting downstairs for me. we took a bus to town to meet sean and maple. maple's supeerr skinny. wanru and sean ddr-ed then we walked about. went to paragon's toys r us then they sat the horse merry go round. we ate at pepper lunch then walekd to shaw. homed by bus at about seven.

i still cant get over the the the fact that i have a phone now. OHMAN X)

QUIZ TIME :D

2005-12-08T00:36:00.000+08:00

Rules: Bold the following that are true about you, italicize things you wish were true, add one true thing about you, and then tag five more people. mer and novelyn wants me to do this :D yay, i know you love me.

I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch much TV these days.
I love olives.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I've watched porn movies.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
I hate the rain.
I'm paranoid at times.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have fresh breath in the morning.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way that I look.
I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
I know how to cornrow.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I think prostitution should be legalized.
I think Britney Spears is pretty.
Slept with a Suitemate.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I would classify myself as ghetto.
I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
I don't hate anyone.
I dislike them.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone. ): CURSE THAT HANDPHONE-STEALER!
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I currently like someone.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
I have at least 5 away messages saved.
I have tried alcohol or drugs before. only alcohol (:
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.w
I own the "South Park" movie.
I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
I enjoy some country music.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I watch soap operas whenever I can.
I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist. only a perfectionish (:
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I like surveys/memes.
I am happy at this moment.
I'm obsessed with guys.
Democrat.
Conservative Republican.
I am punk rockish.
I am preppy.
I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
I believe in prophetic dreams.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went to college out of state.
I am adopted.
I like sausage.
I am a pyro.
I love the Red Sox.
I have thrown up from crying too much.
I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colors.
I love Dear Abby.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I think school is awesome.
I think pigtails serve a purpose.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I don't like multi-textured ice cream.
I think John Cusack is adorable.
I f**king hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
I watch Food Network way too much.
I love coaching youth sports.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I would not be friends if they weren't family.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know who Santos L. Halper is.
I read trashy romance novels and I am ashamed.
I love wrestling.
I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
I'm an artist.
I have a goal to collect every Johnny Depp movie ever made.
I have an unhealthy Taco Bell obsession.
I have had a crush on a cartoon character when I was a kid.
I have spent more on anime and manga than many spend on computers or other high end products.
I only clean my room when necessary.

one true thing : i am a very good listener if you want to talk to me :D

five people : phyllis kimberley rachael geokying REJECTS (:

i drive myself crazy.

2005-12-07T01:28:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE :D

i am surviving well without a phone. haha. went out at night around seven plus to wanru's house. sean and wanru were there. they ate then we went out to climb mount faber. hahah. they were afraid at first :X but the hike up was kinda fun. i like the scenery. and we took the cable car! ohmans, its damn nice. hahah. it was so fun okay. i want to take again. we made wishes when passing a few stop points, :D after the hike down, we went to wanru's house. talked for a while then homed at eleven. short post today.

i like my haloscan, so please tag :D hahhahah. ohmaaaans. i gotta sleep early to go to wanru's house to swim tomorrrrowww. hahahhaha xD my maid better wake me up, i have no phone now. haha (: okay, good night readers.

sean and novelyn are so sweeet i swear. i love the rejects to death man. i cant wait for the dinner on the 12th 12th 12th! watch us transform into butterflies. [ sings the song butterfly - toybox ] i like the song, i drive myself crazy. mer's blog has the song (:

RANDOM

2005-12-06T16:24:00.000+08:00

sorry for the previous post, it was kinda vulgar. and i am not usually like that. only when peopel steal my handphone than i will evolve into such a stage.

i love the rejects. each and every one of them.
atoms momma, babycakes dear, suagr diamonds and fur lameboat :D

HAPPY SWEETHEART DAY :D
i cant sms chaipeng to tell her that because my phone's stolen, so yeah. i'll make do with blogging. haha.

the holidays are gonna be over soon ): mm. and i guess not having a handphone is like shutting myself away from the world. because only few know my home number. mm. on a brighter note, i cant wait for rejects conference tonight (: allrighties, i am off.

stolen handphone ): FUCK YOU LAH.

2005-12-05T19:35:00.000+08:00

my freaking handphone got stolen. FUCK LAH.

irritating piece of chicken baboon's shit saih. NABEI ): i dont friggin swear but this is pissing me offf. thanks rejects for helping me today though leaving me with the cab fare but yeah, MY FUCKING PHONE GOT STOLEN. THANKS HUH, DUDE. i hope you get shot by lightning thrice in a role, BORN WITH INFERTILITY, reincarnate as a FRIGGIN LIZARD, bashed by people because of your TOTALLY AWESOME FACE AND FUCK LAH, GET YOUR HANDPHONE STOLEN AT LEAST TWICE A FUCKING YEAR. EAT MY SHIT, BLOODU ASSWIPE.

****bye KIA. i cantt stannnndddd ittttttt. and rejects arent suppose to curse because i doubt william hung curses too. so yeah, i apologize. dont wave your phone in front of my face, i might just pick it up and smash it on the floor, you smart ass.

fjkancvgwfubrgvsjkdfvbgn gjkbfjkvui fuijkbsjkggggggvh bgvjkbhjkrbtjkvbgkeerietyopjaopvfioebgukvehbgjkbbv kmnbklnklt :((( AHYAH, IRRRRRRITATING.

and my bag's slit, THANKS HUH. everything's in place, WHY CANT THE IDIOT TAKE MY CHARMY KITTY KEYS INSTEAD OF MY FRIGGING PHONE. OHMYSHIT, 295 CONTACTS LOST IN THAT MERE SECOND. thanks ah, asshole. you better get shot and strangled to death or may ghosts haunt your bed every night you sleep and wake up at three am. I AM FUCKING PISSED. goodbye readers, any more fucks in this post and i bet you'll go blind. GOODBYE, AND CURSE YOU HANDPHONE-STEALER.

BINTAN :)

2005-12-04T16:35:00.001+08:00

thats the picture of the bintan resort we're gonna live in.
living room & dinning table :D

thats the front of the house in bintan (:
as well as the buggy we can use to take us every where we wanna go (:

THE BEACH :D
CHEMPAKA RESORT UNIT 36 :D

i want to go chua sihui's partaye ): but i will only be back on christmas day itself. babycakes say she will deliver presents to everyone's place. i bet she'll forget about my present okay. annnndddd bintan trip is coming up real soooooon. i cant wait to come back looking like barbequed (: haha. and kim's coming, so i am more psyched. although two people have gotta sleep in the living room. i'll make my sister and her friend do alternate sleeping arrangements with me and kim (: too bad there are only three rooms there :D chempaka unit 36, the one and only unit i go to every time i go to bintan :D

i wanted the two storey house but we couldnt get it ):

its alllriggghhhhhhtttttt (: HEEEEHEEEE. last night's conference was fun. jaylen wasnt there though. she fell asleep. haha. and i want to have a full rejects conference some day, with chua sihui acting cute, sean trying to be cool with her adorable voice, jaylen always trying desperately to get some sleep but failing because of us and novelyn screaming whilst maple-ing :D midnight conferences :)

dont bother, be unkind.

2005-12-03T23:11:00.000+08:00

ITS OFFICIAL :)

REJECT NUMBER ONE - NOVELYN TEOH
REJECT NUMBER TWO - CHUA SIHUI
REJECT NUMBER THREE - SEAN KAI KRUSH
REJECT NUMBER FOUR - TEO ZHIXIAN
REJECT NUMBER FIVE - SIM WANRU

okay, this was agreed :D no more changes pleaasee. hahah/

i woke up around noon today. bathed and changed up then babycakes picked me up in a cab to go town. wandered about after having yoshi for lunch. then later met charlene and mer at wheelock at about five. plaza singapure after cine. bumped into wayne, bee and fish. sihui joined us. walked and shopped. then went to cine, sihui and sean ddr-ed. jo, sophia and joy were there. after that, sihui mer and charlene left. i cheered babycakes up (: at least i think i did. the shrink has special abilities, -snorts. even i dont believe that. we laughed abit then tried finding the jacket. couldnt find ): we bought yakult then went to harbourfront. they didnt had it there either. i promised babycakes i'll go with her to buy it another day :D cabbed back to her house.

juli and jo were near by there. we went to the park. juli showed me some videos she took. they both talked. talked to sean while walking to her house. we shared some stuff then had dinner :D it was yummy. ahha. went upstairs and saw sean's father and brother. i didnt see the other :\ haha. conferenced while playing with the ball. haha. it was fun (: wanru and olivia were on one line. sean and me were on one line. sean bite me because i wanted to ask the ball some questions, hahha (: about **** **** i think he's likeable but noone thinks the same. oh damnit. went home about ten plus and reached home. here i am :D

i am seriously starting to hate you. get outta my sight, heartbreaker.

2005-12-02T00:19:00.000+08:00

hello, i am not in a good mood ):

my immortal.

2005-12-01T23:29:00.000+08:00

to the next 5 victims, really sorry about it. post five weird or random facts about yourself. at the end, write the names of five ppl whom you want to do this quiz, then tag in their blog to leave them a note to tell them to see your blog.

1 > if you talk to me after midnight, i wouldnt be able to remember what i say the next day. hahahah, so dont come and find me after midnight :D
2 > i am a hopeless romantic, sometimes (: i melt easily, hahha.
3 > i always slam the door of my bathroom before i enter it after 11plus because lizards sometimes lurk there and i had realllly terrribbble experiences with lizards so its kinda phobia-ish :\ haha.
4 > i daydream alot while listening to music alone on long bus rides =]
5 > i curse alot without knowing that i am swearing in $%#@@# language when i get angry. haha.

the next 5 victims;
goodluck to you all.
; sean
; wanru
; novelyn
; kimberley
; mer

HAHAH :D

okay, thats all for the survey. i am gonna blog about today now.

woke up early and bathed. took a bus to harbourfront then 963 came ontime. boarded the bus and reached sean's house at 9plus. she was still sleeping i tell youu. hahha. and simba was like guarding her bed. hahaha. wolfie's cuter. we watched innocent steps, i brought it over while i occasionally browsed through the acs independent & junior yearbooks for year 2001 to 2003. i spotted a couple of familiar faces in 2003's batch of primary sixes. and i had a good laugh. hahhaha. i showed sean and she was like, EWW SO UGLY. for every single boy i pointed out that i recognize. EXCEPT ONE. hahahah. okay, i shant tellll. HEEEHEEEE. but some of them looked better when they were younger. hahah.

we went to her brothers' rooms and she sorta ransacked their clothes. she changed then we cabbed down to town. met sugardiamonds and honey at cine then we went to arcade. shortly later, adeline charmaine michelle shanna andreanna and novelyn came. wanru, sean and charmaine ddr-ed. and later the banana parapara-ed. hohohums. michelle's so funnaye to talk to. pug daddy, yarrreeee :D then the four of us left. saw jaey when she was coming up to the arcade. sweeets :D okay, then we walked about. i forgot what we did leehhh. hahah. oh damnit, i forgot. ohh, we went to paragon's toys r us again. wanru and sean went high. later on, we played [ would you rather ] at our secret hideout (: i had to go up to one of the toys r us saleslady and tell her she was pretty okay. alamak, and she's not that prettttty. hahaha. saw michelle's twin -_-'' it was like seeing double. haah.

we went to tcc and they were complaining about the way i spoke. kept asking me to speak normally like a typical singaporean. and i tried okay but seeing wanru's expression made me laugh alot. haha. we saw rachel chan rachel chue olivia and lorraine there. rachel chan and lorrain looked preetaye :D especially my eyecandy, who looks like a taitai. and chiobu gf, :D okay, then i tried speaking again and wanru said i was abnormal -___-'' YARE YARE.

we went to taka. then later olivia left. headed back to cine then they ddr-ed. all of us wanted to go home then realized sean cant go home because she had no cash and noone could pick her up so we went to wanru's place. our talking session was productive. we chatted alot and you know, just shared some stuff with each other. i read, they went online then kim had to go off. so yeah, left with wanru and me. we ate dinner like pigs i tell ya. hahha. never ate so much at such a late timing mannn. hahahah. then bused home about eleven.

OO, REJECT NUMBER ONE JUST TELEPHONED. THERE IS SUPPOSED TO BE A REJECT CONFERENCE TONIGHT. SO I GOTTA GO INFORM THE OTHERS. GOODNIGHT PEOPLE, ILY (:

you're a walking contradiction.

2005-11-30T16:23:00.000+08:00

you're a walking contradiction.

was supposed to go sean's house today but not only did i woke up late, i had horrible gastric ): i really wanted to go babycakes's house okaay. nevermind, tomorrow shall come and i will be there throwing pebbles at her window, hoping she finally wakes up from the ruckus i am creating at her doorstep. wolfie and simba are cute (: okaay. maybe i do like wolfie more now.

innocent steps is a nice show. combinding rumba and cha-cha together is no easy feat and watching the dance movie actually makes you feel like getting up on your feet and experiment with those moves. i didnt, dont worry. hah. and thinking back, this is like the only day i spent at home. since school's out until now, i have been parading every where in this little island and coming home close to midnight. sometimes earlier by a little, and sometimes later by alot. yeah, i guess some of the words i heard were right. like screwing up my whole life now by all that outings and stuff, i think i really do need to sit down and think it all through without my emotions overflooding the capability of making a correct decision.

i dont wish to return to what i was. even i was blind to the peers i used to mix with and the actions i did. mm, it wasnt horrifying to the extent that you've gotta back away with fear ethced on your faces but it was bad. its alwasy easy to be bad then do the right thing. its always harder to succeed and much easier to fail. and all i can say, is that i am trying (: to become the person that i was before, with a tinge of maturity and more. and i better succeed :D this is a random post, that just speaks everything thats on my mind at the moment. goodbye readers <3

IRONY OF THE RAIN.

2005-11-29T21:52:00.000+08:00

standing outside my house, hearing we belong together while feeling the small splatter of rain blow back onto my face. the saddness that comes when it begins to pour. the irony of it. it always seems to rain when i am not in the best of moods. sigh.

i was supposed to stay home the entire day and rot to death while reading my books but i got persuaded by wayne and kimberley to come out. so i did. wayne cabbed down and fetched us to ps. we walked about and bumped into michelle from sjc and charmaine. then i forgot what happened then all of us started talking about kotex, whisper and my new founded band, pug daddy. i was supposed to say i saw pug jelly at far east and i ended up saying i saw pug daddy. ohgod, my pronounciation has major loopholes today. haha. michelle and charmaine were laughing like i dont know what. then we talked about killing people by sticking charmaine's kotex pad into their faces as well as dunking them into the toilet after someone leaked, peeed and shitted in there. hahahha. michelle's so skinny man and she's funny. hahah. i like talking to michelle :D

we four went to gelare to eat waffles. then jaey, zoey and shanna came to gelare. kimberley came too before she left for piano lessons. we ate fried icecream, ahah. then walked about. met michelle and and sweetheart then we went down. charmaine and michelle lee went off. then left with michelle ang, wayne, chaipeng and me. michelle and me ate at yoshi. then walked about. kelson and meizhu came. then we went up, waited for a while. sean, wanru, mer, lyanne and charlene came. i listened to chaipeng's ipod for a while. then talked a little. then they left, we walked down to cine. krystal joined us. went to arcade then michelle, wayne, meizhu and kelson left. krystal, chaipeng and me ate the chocolate dipped fruits.

i felt like going home. was a little down. the stupid busdriver refused to let me take the bus because he said i was 18 and i need to pay one dollar. i was damn irritated with him. dropped another dollar in then took my ticket. went to sit. reached my house's lobby, then it started to pour like crazy. mm. reached home and here i am. i gotta go now to bathe. will be right back.

i am gonna start crying any moment. please dont talk to me.

i am sorry, i cant be perfect.

2005-11-28T21:24:00.000+08:00

HELLO. I AM A VERY TIRED GIRL, WHO WAS IRRITATED TO HELL BY OLIVIA WONG JUST NOW. TALK TO ME AND I WILL GO KA-BOOM.

happy third month, my dearest sunshine lollipop rush (: thanks for the hug, you rock.

i didnt sleep today at all. last night, was talking to kim on the phone then novelyn called in. somehow or rather, later sihui and wanru called too. and we all conferenced on my mom's phone. till about 3plus am then we called wanru's phone and continued chatting. ohgod, i didnt even feel tired okay. then wanru fell asleep close to six, followed by sean then left with novelyn, sihui and me. we talked til seven okay. didnt even sleep a wink okay. whaliao. i changed up at about close to eight then went to meet novelyn and sihui at wanru's house downstaris. wasnt in a fantastic mood after i had a certain phonecall. oh whatever, fuck it. then we went up, you should have seen wanru's reaction when she saw us mannn. hahaha.

we watched ' i am sam ' it was touching. i was rather engrossed in it. sean came then they fooled about. novelyn and me watched. we towned, they ddred then tcc again. coffee makes me reminsice actually. we headed to toys r us at paragon and i dont know, was laughing quite a bit there. then sihui and wanru were playing truth or dare, we participated but only in sabotaging each other. sihui lose her sports shoes, )))): sophia came and joined us for a while too. then later she went off for tuition. we walked back to cine, they ddred again then heeren to cab back to wanru's house at 5 i think. i cant remember. chuasihui was damn funny. she ran out of her cab in the middle of the road when it was still red light to collect her phone from novelyn's bag. all of us were damn shocked okay.

wanru's house. i am officially, the SHRINK. and i speak cheemology which means i am a cheemologist. yare yare, its all sean and wanru's ideas. they were kinda mad back then with the cookie monster and the rose. mm. i sent kim down after that when wanru was still asleep. had dinner than olivia came up. i fell asleep on the sofa while olivia was irritating me. i think she can be my irritating honey, whole life annoying me. like last time, disturbing me while i was sleeping next to sumay on wanru's bed. i really felt like murdering her okay. haha. i walked home about 815 and reached home at 822. tell me how cool is that. people at night are super sinsiter okay. god, the mystery that surrounds theirr eyes can draw you into a realm of i dont know, discomfort.

allrighties, i am just gonna pounce upon a few websites before i scram. might talk on the phone again tonight, if i dont fall asleep first. hohohums. night readers (:

i just cant be perfect.
the constant hormones thats got me swinging like a pendulum.
i am gonna breakdown soon.

2005-11-28T00:05:00.000+08:00

I AM : talking on the phone with kimberly chua :D

I WANT : to finish this quiz.

I HAVE : A GIGANTIC EEYORE (:

I WISH : that all my wishes wil come true (:

I HATE : someone.

I MISS : SOMEONE.

I FEAR : LIZARDS, EWWW.

I HEAR : because you live.

I WONDER : why my internet is so friggin slowwww.

I REGRET : regretting :P

I LOVE: everyone who i love :D

I'M ALWAYS: talking (: [according to seankrush]

I DANCE: HAHA.

I SING: pop princess :O

I CRY: because of pressure.

I LOST: a part of me.

I'M CONFUSED: because i am always confused :X

I NEED: to do tons of stuff i havent done.

I SHOULD: be talking on the phone with babycakes and off the internet.

Yes or No

u keep a diary: YES (: which i write in like, once in a few months. hahah.

u like to cook: YES :)

u hav a secret u have not shared with anyone: i dont recall.

u believe in love: yes.

want to get married: mm hmm, when the time draws near.

think u're a health freak : noway.

get along with ur parents: not very well these days.

Favourite

NUMBER: 11

COLORS: LIMEGREEEN (: black and purple.

MONTHS: holiday seasons (:

SEASON: winter.

Preferences

CHOCOLATE MILK OR VANILLA: vanilllllla.

SUSHI OR FISH FILLET: sushi. <3

THE BEACH OR THE MALL: SUN SAND AND SEA (:

DAY OR NIGHT: IN BETWEEEEN :D

CHRISTMAS OR CHINESE NEWYEAR/HARI RAYA?: christmas.

GIFT OR MONEY: money and gifts (:

LETTER OR E-MAIL: letter.

THE PIANO OR THE GUITAR: guitar.

NIKE OR ADIDAS: adidas.

REEBOK OR CONVERSE: reebok.

ANIMALS OR PLANTS: animaaaaaaals.

PHONE OR PERSON: person.

HOME OR OUTSIDE: OUTSIDE :B

HOT OR COLD: BOTH (: HAWT AND COOL. hahah.

HELPED SOMEONE? : sure.

BOUGHT SOMETHING: today :)

GOTTEN SICK? last time.

GONE TO THE MOVIES? : yesterday.

GONE OUT FOR DINNER? yesterday.

WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? yeps.

TALKED TO AN EX? i guesss so.

WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? half way.

HAD A SERIOUS TALK? like yesterday, haha.

HUGGED SOMEONE? yes.

PLAYED ANY GAMES ONLINE? ys :P

SCARS.

2005-11-27T22:36:00.000+08:00

OHMYGOD, I AM SUPPOSED TO CALL BABYCAKES LIKE NOW.
OHMY, ITS HALF AN HOUR AGO. DAMN IT. PHONE PHONE, HERE I COME (:

okay i called kim and we hung up because she was playing mahjong, hahaha. and i overheard something she didnt want me to hear. hahaha pretty prettty :D i am not going out tomorrow, my parents do not allow. eat shit mannzxz. i kinda miss bballing with the sjc people at sengkang and volleyballing with chick as well as basketballing with the others lehhhh. and i realized that all i have done for the past two weeks or rather, three is just going out all the time. be it sengkang basketball court, town or sentosa. boring life huh. i neeeeed to find something else to occupy myself with until i leave on the 16th of december, it might seem long but i bet its going to come very soooon.

ruth yeow just requested for me to blog about her. that shitface. i was talking to miss gorgeous when she was on her way back to singapore from johor bahru. that dodo brain didnt get me anything from malaysia and she asked me to entertain her on the phone. there was some noisy guy in the background and we kept laughing at him. i bet he doesnt know, else ruth wouldnt have been able to cross the causeway. hahaha. and she spent ages queing up to go past the immigration. hahha okay, thats all. it was a half an hour plusplus talk i think. happy now ruth? hahaha.

i guess its a teen thing to rebel.

this week's gonna be full too i think. and i feel like going to sentosa. anyone? haha. i havent been tanning for a long time. four more minutes till the third month with melissa tong :D

QUIZ TIME

2005-11-25T16:05:00.000+08:00

i got this from yane's private blog (:

1 yane
2 maybelle
3 sean
4 chaipeng
5 mer
6 lyanne
7 kim
8 novelyn
9 wayne
10 ashley
11 linsin
12 yile
13 phyllis
14 chick
15 kelly
16 wanru
17 sumay
18 chuasihui
19 sophia
20 josephine

How did you meet 13?: when we visited sjc and i met her! haha, and we got to know each other better through other people.

What would you do if you never met 5?: melissa tong?! CANNOT LAH. without her, my life's one incomplete jigsaw puzzle eh. hahah.

What do you honestly think of 10?: she is one of the sweetest things alive. 2BAYE would have been a whole different class without her around.

Have you ever liked 3?: HAHAHA. she is one of the closest things EVER EVER EVER. thats why i dont like her, I LOVE HER OKAY :DD

If 1 died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would like to do?: i'll buy her 77 lollipops and stay with her till she leaves. BUT SHE'S NOT GONNA DIE LAH, her lifeline's longer than mine (:

Would 2 and 11 make a good couple?: AHAHAH. MAYBELLE AND LINSIN? i think they are each other's NUMBER ONES. and i dont know, maybe? hahah.

Do you think 12 is hot?: YILE, HOT? EH HUM. i dontttt knowwwwwwww :D

Would 1 and 17 make a lovely couple?: LOL, NO WAY. HAHAHAH. SO WRONG SO SO WRONG. (:

Do you know any of 3's family members?: yeah, most i guess. not personally, but i dont know. hohohums. i think wolfie's friendliest, hahahah.

On a scale of 1-10 how cute is 14?: like more than 50? HAHAH.

What would you do if 4 just professed their undying love for you: CHAIPENG?! HAHAH. i'll slap her in the face with the eeyore she gave me and FLEEE. hahahha, i havent thought about that before. so yeah, it will be funny? HMMMS.

What language does 19 speak?: HAHAH, HAHAHHA. i dont know, she talks nonsense like 3/4 of the time. it depends on what kind of garbage she eats, HEE.

Who is 8 going out with?: nobody i think. eh wait, NOVELYNNNNN. you didnt tell me you were going out with someone! :D

Would 18 and 5 make a good couple?: CHUA SIHUI AND MELISSA TONG? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. SO FUNNNAYE. HAHAHAHHA. COUPLE ?!? :D

When was the last time you talked to 6?: a few hours ago before she told me she had to go call her girlfriend. HAHA, NUTELLA.

What is 18's favorite band?: i dont know eh, charmy kitty? HAHAHAH. i'm kidding, (:

Does 4 have any siblings?: i thinks he has brothers? HAHA, i dont know eh.

Would you ever date 1?: HAH YEAH RIGGHT. MY EH, PTB. how can you date your part time bestie -_____-''

Would you ever date 7?: KIMBERLEY KAN?! HAHAHA, NO NO NO, i bet she's already smitten with someone else, hawhaw.

Is 15 single?: SHE BETTER BE. how can a son not tell her mom who she is attached to mannnnn. (:

What is 19's last name?: SOPHIA LEE [SI WEN ZI (: ]

What is 3's middle name?: nicole? heee.

What is 10's fantasy?: HAH, i dont know? i dont think she will tell me either -_____-''

Would 14 and 19 make a good couple?: hahah, they dont even know each other! HAWHAWHAW.

What school does 16 go to?: STCCCCCCC :D

What school does 1 go to?: AIS (:

Where does 9 live?: bukit permai, haha.

Would you make out with 13?: HAHAH, NO WAY EEEW OMG HAHAHAH. (: THATS TOTALLLY PL MAN. hahha, i wouldnt.

Are 5 and 6 best friends?: MAYBE. THEY CAN BE, HAHAH.

Is 20 older than you?: LIKE FOUR WHOLE YEARS -_______- SHE'S LEGAL EHHH.

Is 4 the sexiest bitch prettiest girl alive?: HHAH, SHE DOESNT EVEN LOOK LIKE A GIRL. AND NO, she isnt sexaye. shit, chaipeng better not see this man. else, my eeyore's gonna haunt me at night. hahahah.

Is 17 your ex?: HAHHA YEAH RIGHT. MY NUNBER ONE EH, not my girlfriend/ex girlfriend.

Do you ever see yourself with 12 and 18?: HAHAH, NO NO NO. 12's TAKEN by someone already. 18's MAD, you wouldnt wanna be attached to her. she will probably go, ' CHARMY KITTY ! ' in your ears for hours. eh shit, chuasihui better not read this too. hahahha.

How is 2?: MY PRETTY LADY. i havent heard from her, i hope she's better (:

HAHAHHA, COMMENTS? I THINK THIS WAS FUNNAYE :DD

MY LOVED ONES (: THE ROSES AND THE EEYORE.

2005-11-25T15:14:00.000+08:00

THE FIRST PICTURE IS THE TWO ROSES FROM SEAN & CHAIPENG (: they are both equally nice right? the mist thing is because i kept the roses in the fridge overnight and took them out for a mere second just to take pictures of it. :DD THANKYOUUUU.

AND THE SECOND PICTURE IS THE GIGANTIC EEYORE FROM CHAIPENG, THANKKKYYOOOOOUUU. oh and thanks to babycakes for helping me carry it around town that night. you rocks :D

thank you for the gifts, they made me feel happpieeeerrrrr :D

MY LOVELYN HOLIDAY (: MY BIGBIG EEYORE. MY ROSES (:

2005-11-25T00:21:00.000+08:00

HELLO (:

I AM BACCCCCK. OKAY, FROM WEDNESDAY MORNING ONWARDS, I WILL BLOG ABOUT THE HAPPENEINGS. IT HAS BEEN A GREAT TWO-DAY :D

ON WEDNESDAY AFTERNOON KIM CAME OVER TO MY PLACE AND FIDDLED WITH THE COMPUTER THAN WE HEADED TO TOWN. REACHED TOWN AND NOVELYN JOINED US. THEN ERR I FORGOT WHAT I HAPPENED. I HAD LUNCH AT GALILEE THEN WENT ARCADE. I CANT REMEMBER WHO WAS THERE AND THEN SUMAY AND SIHUI CAME. LATER ON THERE WAS THIS FIGHT OUTSIDE CINE THE CROSSING ROAD JUNCTURE. THIS GROUP OF AHLIANS VS THE OLD INDIAN WOMAN WHO SELLS TISSUE. IT WAS RATHER HORRRRIBLE. KIMBERLEY AND CELENE WERE THERE TOO. CELENE & ME PITIED THE OLD LADY CAUSE IT WAS LIKE THIS FEW AHLIANS CUSSING AT HER. PRETTY BAD IMAGE THOUGH THE OLD LADY IS NOT NICE EITHER.

OKAY THEN WE WENT WISMA. I FORGOT WHAT HAPPENED. THEN WE WENT TO PASIR RIS BY TRAIN. WE COULDNT FIND THE CHALET, PAID ONE DOLLAR FOR NOTHING TO ENTER ANOTHER TYPE OF CHALET. WAYNE'S CHALET WAS DOWN AT THE OTHER END. REACHED, SAW ALOT OF PEOPLE. LATER KIM STOMPED OFF TO THE BEACH AND MICHELLE, NOVELYN AND ME FOLLOWED. WE GOT OUR FEETS STUCK IN THE MUD THAT SPLASHED SHORTS HIGH. IT WAS EEEEEWWW. TALKED TO MICHELLE, TALKED TO KIM. THEN WATCHED CELENE STAMP ON NIGEL'S NAME IN THE SAND AND KIM MAKING A BIG FUSS.

PAMELA SEAH GAVE ME A LIFESIZE EEYORE THAT IS LIKE, HUMONGOUS. ITS LIKE I DONT KNOW. SUPER DUPER BIGBIGBIG. I WAS DAMNNIT SHOCKED OKAY. DAMNNN SHOOCCCKKEED. ITS DAMN BIG OKAY AND PAMELA LOOK LIKE SHE IS THE SLIGHTLY BIGGER SIZE OF THE EEYORE. AND THE EEYORE WAS IN SANTA CLAUS COSTUME. AND CHAIPENG GAVE ME A PINKISH-WHITE ROSE THAT LOOKS LIKE WHITE CHOCOLATE PETALS GLUED TOGETHER. I WANTED TO DEVOUR IT OKAY. WHAAALIAO. THANKYOU CHAIPENG, YOU MADE MY DAY. THE HUMONGOUS EEYORE WILL REMIND ME OF YOU IN FUTURE WHEN I GO TO SLEEP.

SEAN HAD TO CARRY THE HUMONGOUS EEYORE AND I BET SHE COULDNT SEE MUCH WHEN SHE WAS CARRYING IT, AROUND TOWN FOR ME. AND SO MANY PEOPLE KEPT ASKING ABOUT THE EEYORE. HAHAH. AND SEAN DIDNT MIND CARRYING IT FOR ME. I SWEAR MY BABYCAKES IS DAMN NICE. THE THREE OF US HAD CHOCOLATE MOUSSE AND THEN KIM LEFT AT NINE. BABYCAKES AND ME WALKED OVER TO HEEREN THEN WE TOOK NEOPRINTS BEFORE CABBING BACK TO HER PLACE WHILE LISTENING TO MY MP3. WOLFIE IS SO CUTE, HAHAH. TALKED AND SURFED THE INTERNET. WE SLEPT CLOSE TO TWO OR ABOUT TWO PLUS? SEAN SLEPT FIRST I THINK. HAHHA. AND I WOKE UP FIRST, PIGGG. HEEHEE. WE ATE SCRAMBLED EGGS, SAUSAGES AND BREAD FOR BREAKFAST WHILE WATCHING METEOR GARDEN. IT WAS SO SADDDD OKAY. THE LAST FEW DISCS, THEN LATER I REFUSED TO CHOOSE A DESTINATION TO GO UNTIL I FINALLY SAID TOWN.

WASHED UP AND DRESSED UP. I FORGOT TO BRING MY BELT AHHH. THEN WE BUSED TO TOWN, MET NOVELYN AND HER FRIENDS AT GALILEE THEN LYANNE CAME. WENT TO BUY HER HEELS AND LATER, MY BLACK BELT :DD THEN WE WALKED TO PARAGORN. DAMNIT, SEAN GOT ME THIS EXPENSIVE BLUE ROSE THATS SO SO SO PRETTTTYYYYYY. AHYEEEEE. THANKYOU BABYCAKES, I LOVEEEEE YOU. WALKED TO PACIFIC PLAZA, SEAN PASS A ROSE TO PHYLLIS THEN WE WENT FAR EAST. THE THREE OF US BOUGHT EARRINGS AND THEN LYANNE BOUGHT A TOP. I BOUGHT A TOP. LYANNE BOUHGT A BROWN JACKET THATS VERY STYLISH. WE SAW GERMAINE AND GEN THERE. MY RUBBISH : ) HAHAH. I WILL MISS MY RUBBISH NEXT YEAR, HOHOHUMS.

LATER ON, WE ERRR. WENT TO CINE THEN THEY ARCADED. I FORGOT WHAT HAPPPENED. THEN WE WENT TO PS, THEY WANTED TO DDR I THINK. THEN THE MACHINE WASNT ON, WE SAW JULI WORKING. HAD DINNER AT CRYSTAL JADE AND WHILE WAITING IN THE QUEUE, WE SAW SINYEE MINPEI ELIS AND CHICK COMING OUT. THEN SAW PHYLLIS WHILE EATING. CHOILING WAS THERE TOO. THEN WE WALKED ABOUT. WENT OUTSIDE PS THEN SAW MAYBELLE LINSIN HUIYAN ELIZABTEH ELIS AND SINYEE. CHEERED MY PRETTY LADAY UP A LITTLE, I HOPE SHE'S ALLRIGHT NOW. I HAVE BEEN THINKING OF HER FOR QUITE A FEW TIMES TONIGHT. HMMMMS. WHERE IS MAYBELLE ?! :(

CABBED TO LYANNE'S HOUSE THEN THEY DDRED. TEN PLUS, SEAN'S PARENTS CAME AND FETCHED US BACK TO SEAN'S PLACE. WE TOOK MY STUFF AND MY HUMONGOUS EEYORE THEN WENT TO BUSSTOP. THE BUS DOESNT LIKE ME, IT REFUSED TO COME FOR HOURS. THEN LATER I CABBED HOME FROM HARBOUR AREA, AND HERE I AM. OKAY LONG POST TODAY. CHICK JUST ASKED ME TO CONFERENCE WITH SDBDFNNSENN AND ALL ON THE PHONE. I FEEL LIKE COMMITING SUICIDE MAN. OKAY I WAS SUPPOSED TO CALL THREE PEOPLE NOW. AND I HAVE ONLY ONE PAIR OR EARS AND ONE MOUTH. I BETTER START TAKING ACTION, GOODBYE READERS. LEAVE A TAG :D

2005-11-23T10:28:00.000+08:00

GOODMORING (:
i am in a freaking dilema. to go or to go else where. to stay or stay elsewhere. so kill me now, i want to go high tea lehhhhh. can make your own icecream, according to chuasihui. hoho.

conference last night with sean, sihui, novelyn and sumay. sumay fell asleep first then followed by kim. the three of us chatted till three plus then sihui saw the lightning thing. we hung off close to four i guess. and i woke up at nineplus to reply sugardiamond's message, she left already. ahh, i feel sad okay. anyway, happy third month anniversary to MINE (x

ahyaaah. i havent packed anything to sleep over so i guess i better start now. gooodbye readers, enjoy your err holidays. damnit, it feels like its coming to an end.

YOU DRIVE ME FANATICAL.

2005-11-22T23:17:00.000+08:00

i had a haircut, now my fringe's gone. my heart aches, damnnit. tomorrow is wayne's chalet, mm. i still dont know if i am gonna stay over but i want to see babycakes tomorrow. and i havent pack my stuff for the chalet. still have tons of things to do but, i cant seem to recall at the moment.

OKAY THIS IS THE PICTURE I BROWSED UPON JUST NOW WHEN I WAS UPSET. AND I THOUGHT OF TWO THINGS WHEN I BURST INTO LAUGHTER. ONE, SEAN KAI KRUSH :D TWO, LISTENING TO POP PRINCESS WHILE BOBBLING OUR HEADS AT THE AIPORT. SEE MR BABYCAKES'S TRYING-TO-HIDE-BUT-FAILING-MISERABLY SMILE? HOHOHUMMMS.

i miss that day. and i cant get rid of that emptiness inside no matter how hard i try. its ironic to think of it this way.

she's no you.

five signs of falling for you again . i feel like the biggest fool on earth .

Pop princess hold my hand

Pop princess I'm a fan

Pop princess I need you now

Freak me out turn me inside out

Pop princess make me smile

Pop princess drive me wild

Pop princess I need you now

So baby turn your love up loud

if i let you go

2005-11-22T14:43:00.000+08:00

i had the most horrible moodswings yesterday. i am sorry, sigh.

i guess i am better now. i woke up at two plus in the afternoon. i'll be staying home today i guess.wayne's chalet is tomorrow, hmms. i doubt i will stay over, babycakes says i can stay at her house but i dont know if the invitation still applies.

i am tired, very exhautsed. and i have a splitting headache. sigh.

if i let the emotions flow //

2005-11-21T18:58:00.000+08:00

the flying red blades tainted with dark red crust left behind.
the darkness that looms above the one in black. the painless yet razor sharp feeling.
the tears that cant stop flowing and the blood that cant stop trickling.

its numbed now. goodbye.

I NEED YOU TONIGHT.

2005-11-20T23:04:00.000+08:00

hello (:

i am blogging. after an entire day of isolation. and apologies for not replying to your messages, i just felt a little down and decided not to. hmms, i am talking to babycakes now (: she makes me smile eh. and tomorrow, we're having breakfast at macs :D haha. and after that, we'll decide tomorrow. BABYCAKES ISNT GOING OFF TO CANADA, I AM A HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY GIRL (: now, we can spend 31ST OF DECEMBER TOGETHER (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ELIS, TOMORROW :)

i cant be perfect ):

2005-11-20T15:34:00.000+08:00

HEY.

I SENT THE PICTURES OF THE 2B SENTOSA OUTING TO MOST OF THE GIRLS ALREADY. I HOPE YOU'ALL RECEIVED IT, IF NOT PLEASE EMAIL ME AND TELL ME WHO YOU ARE SO THAT I CAN SEND THEM TO YOU.

I STAYED HOME TODAY. DIDNT FEEL LIKE GOING OUT AND WANTED TO GO TO THE LIBRARY BUT CHANGED MY MIND. I HAVE A HORRIBLE HEADACHE AND I FEEL LIKE ISOLATING MYSELF TODAY FROM THE WORLD. SO GOODBYE, READERS.

cause we lost it all and nothing lasts forever. i'm sorry, i cant be perfect.

it was a beautiful image until a stone smashed the mirror.

IF I LET YOU GO, WESTLIFE.

2005-11-19T23:21:00.000+08:00

HEYYO. I AM BACK.

WENT TO KIM'S HOUSE EARLY IN THE MORNING. SHE DIDNT EVEN CHANGE UP YET. WE TOOK A LONG TIME TO GET TO MACS, HAD BRUNCH THEN WE CABBED TO TOWN. MY BABYCAKES ROCK OKAY, SHE PAID FOR OUR COMBINED CAB FARE TWICE TODAY. WHERE CAN YOU FIND SUCH A NICE PERSON LAH. WE WENT TO CINE THEN WE HAD OREO CHEESCAKE, TWO PLATES :D HAHA. THE WAITRESS WAS SO SMALL, SO CUTEEE. HAHAHA. NOVELYN CAME THEN WE WALKED ABOUT.

WE SAW CRYSTAL, RAHMUNA, KAILYN, GAIL AND RACHEL CHUE. WE WERE LAZING AROUND THEN LYANNE AND JO CAME. I GOT JO A COOKIE LOLLY AND SHE GAVE ME A PINK TULLIP. HAHAH, THANK YOU LAUGHING PARTNER (: ITS OUR DAY TODAY, YOU ROCK. SAW LYANNE'S STALKER. AND LATER ON, I SAW THE HISTORY, BACK TO THE PAST WHERE I WAS FANATICAL OVER HIM LAST TIME. OHWEELL, FUCKIT. LATER, BABYCAKES AND I DRANK BANANA MILK AND SHE BOUGHT BATTERIES FOR ME! HAHAHH. SHE IS AWESOME MAN. (: THEN WE WENT TO THE BUSSTOP AT HEEREN TO TAKE A BUS TO AIRPORT.

KIM SAID THIS GUY HOLDING A ADIDAS BAG'S HAIR WAS COOL. THEN HE WENT UP THE SAME BUS AS US AND I HAD TO SIT BESIDE HIM BECAUSE KIM REFUSED TO CHANGE SEATS WITH ME. THEN I WAS WATCHING DONT CHA'S VIDEO ON LYANNE'S IPOD VIDEO. I SWEAR I SAW THAT ADIDAS GUY TRYING TO PEEP AT THE IPOD. HOHOH. NOBEL WAS DAMN FUNNY IN THE BUS AND LYANNE WAS RESTLESS. KIM WAS LISTENING TO THE SAME SONG OVER AND OVER AGAIN. JO WAS JUST STONNING THEN SLEEPING. THE ADIDAS GUY FELL ASLEEP WHILE HEARING THE DONT CHA SONG ON HIS MP3. THEN HIS PHONE RANG! HAHAHAH [ WE BELONG TOGETHER ] THE RINGTONE OKAY, DONT PLAYPLAY. HAHAHAHAH. THEN HE WOKE UP OF COURSE.

I THINK HE IS COOL TOO LAH. LIKE THE TYPICAL ATHLETIC KINDA GUYS. HOHOHUMS. KIM KEPT LOOKING OVER AT HIM IN THE BUS, HOHOHOHO. WE ATE MARSHMALLOWS IN THE BUS AND LYANNE WAS COMPLAINING ABOUT THE LACK OF CHOCOLATE IN HER MARSHMALLOWS WHILE I GLOATED ABOUT THE QUANTITY OF MINE. HAHAHAH. FUNAYE. I WAS DAMN URGENT AND IN NEED OF THE TOILET SO I WAS COMPLAINING ABOUT USING THE LOO. AFTER RELIEVING MYSELF, WE WENT TO MACS. SOME GUYS KEPT STARNG AT KIM, BLOODY ASSES. HUM. WE MET SHANNA AND CO LATER ON WHEN WAITING FOR WANRU THEY ALL TO COME BACK.

TEACHERS WERE THERE, MOOD SPOILERS. THEN I SAW THE NEW ZEALAND GIRLS! I WAS SO EXCITED WHEN I SAW THEM OKAY. I HUGGED LAURA THEN WANRU THEN SUMAY. I MISSS LAURA AND SUMAY AND WANRU ALOT LEEHHHHHH. CHINCHAO CONVERSATIONS WITH LAURA, TALKING RUBBBISH WITH WANRU AND GOING OUT WITH SUMAY. EEEHAW. WE HEADED TO TOWN. SERIES OF STUFF HAPPENED, DONT WANNA ELABORATE. KIM AND ME WENT TO ANOTHER CARRIAGE, FELL ASLEEP FOR A WHILE. MISSED THE STOP AND HAD TO TAKE BACK. TOOK PICTURES IN THE REFLECTION WITH KIM THEN WENT TOWN. IN THE TRAIN TO ORCHARD, KIM SAID THERE WERE THESE TWO BUNGS AND THEIR GIRLFRIENDS WHO KEPT STARING. I DIDNT SEE, BUT ITS IRRRITATING I GUESS. WALKED TO SCOTTS.

LYANNE, JULI, JO, CELINE, WANRU AND NOVELYN WERE THERE EATING, I HAD A CHOCOLATE MOUSSE THATS ALL. THEN HAD A WALK WITH BABYCAKES AND WE TALKED (: THEN FASTFORWARD TO HEEREN. BABYCAKES WANTED TO CONFIDE IN ME SO SHE GAVE ME A LIFT AND THEN NOW WE'RE ON THE PHONE NOT SAYING ANYTHING TO EACH OTHER. BECAUSE WE ARE BOTH BLOGGING. HAHAH. TODAY WAS KINDA FUN, I WANT MORE ): I HOPE BABYCAKES WOULDNT LEAVE FOR CANADA, I BET I WILL CRY WHEN SHE LEAVES. DAMNN IT. OKAY, I AM OFF. MY CAMERA'S MEMORY CARD IS FRIGGING CORRUPTED OKAY, I CANT VIEW THE PICTURES OR SEND ANY. FUCK IT, THE 2B PICTURES OF SENTOSA ALL INSIDE LEH. EAT SHIT, I FEEL SO GUILTY. I AM SORRY, 2BAYE PEOPLE. I HOPE IT REPAIRS BECAUSE I HAVE A WHOLE LOAD OF PICTURES TO UPLOAD INSIDE. DAMNNNITTTT.

I LOVE MY BABYCAKES, NEXT TIME WHEN YOU CRY PLEASE DONT HOLD BACK BECAUSE I'LL BE HERE TO LEND YOU A SHOULDER TO CRY ON LIKE ALWAYS. IF YOU DO GO TO CANADA, PLEASE REMEMBER TO WRITE THE DIARY ENTRIES FOR ME ALLRIGHTS? AND I LOVE YOU BABYCAKES, I'LL MISS YOU WHEN YOU ARE GONE OKAY. I HOPE YOU DONT GO AYE :D

POP PRINCESS , HOLD MY HAND :)

2005-11-18T23:38:00.000+08:00

HELLO : D
i just realized the whole of this week passed real fast and i never ever had so much fun. thanks to eveyrone who went out with me this week, it has been unforgettable :D

today, i woke up kinda late. lazed about then bathed. bused down to harbourfront, went into the station to top up my card then bused to babycakes's house. we watched meteor garden and sat about till about five plus then mer came. today was FUN, HAHA. we watched wang zi bian qing wa and it was awesome :D HEE. then later, we wnet to the twits site and mer & sean said i was ahlian okay. just because i can read the ahlian words and i know how to read the swear words. alamak. hahah. it was a cool site okay. my goodnesss. then kim sat on me -__________- and i found something for her that made her grin like an idiot. babycakes still owe me a thousand and one things that she will prolly only give me next year )): )))):

walked to busstop and bused home. was quite a short journey to me. reached home, bathed and then here i am. tomorrow is gonna be another day out. i am going over to babycakes's house at nine plus and this time, i'll throw stones at her window. but what if it breaks ): i will feel damn guilty eh. breakfast at macs then town, woohoo. i cant wait. bye readers, stay tune for tomorrow ! (:

IF I LET YOU GO ): SENTOSA.

2005-11-17T22:26:00.000+08:00

AWW MAN, DEAR IS GOING OFF SOON, AND I WOULDNT SEE HER UNTIL THE FIRST OF JANUARY. I FEEL SAD NOW.

MY FATHER LEFT A NEW MP3, ZEN NANO PLUS NEXT TO MY TABLE THIS MORNING AND I ALMOST CRIED MAN. I DID WANTED A MP3 PLAYER BUT IT CAME AS A SHOCK. AND I EVEN TOLD NOVELYN, I WANTED TO DIE AT SENTOSA WITH MY BRAND NEW MP3. AWW, I FEEL DAMN BAD NOW. MY FATHER SAID ; CHIRSTMAS CAME EARLY (: IT SURE DID MAN. THANKYOU THANKYOU.

NOVELYN AND ME PLANNED THE WHOLE SENTOSA OUTING TODAY AT MIDNIGHT. ROUNDED UP THE TROOPS, JOY CELINE MER SIHUI LYANNE JOSEPHINE KIM NOVELYN AND ME. MET JOY CELINE AND NOVELYN AT SCHOOL BUSSTOP THEN WE WENT TO HARBOUR. MET JO AND LYANNE. THEN WENT TO YOSHI, SIHUI MER AND KIM CAME ALL AT DIFFERENT TIMES. WE WERE GONNA BOARD THE BUS, THEN THIS GUY TOLD HIS FRIENDS THAT KIM'S HAIR WAS DAMN STYLE. HAHAH, :D WE WENT TO SENTOSA, BIKED. I CRASHED INTO THE GREEN SILOSO TRAM, BLOOD AT A COUPLE OF WOUNDS. MY HAND WAS RAMMED UNDER THE WHEEL OF THE BICYCLE WHICH WAS UNDER THE WHEEL OF THE HUGE TRAM, IT WAS SO FAST AND SO HORRENDOUS. URGH.

KIM AND NOVELYN HELPED WASH MY WOUNDS. THANKYOU, BABYCAKE AND FURR (: THEN WE WENT SWIMMING FOR A WHILE, PLAYED WITH SAND THEN BATEHD AT THE TOILET. SIHUI MER AND CELINE WENT HOME AND THE REST OF US, NOVELYN KIM JOY LYANNE JO AND ME WENT TO TOWN. WE ATE AT CINE'S KFC, JIARUI CAME. AFTER EATING, I ACCOMPANIED KIM NEXT DOOR TO HAVE HER DINNER. CHATTED, WE WALKED OUT OF CINE AFTER KIM BOUGHT HER COOKIES. WE WALKED TO PLAZA SING. I PRACTICALLY HAD TO DRAG KIM AWAY FROM THE SCREEN SHOWING [ DONT CHA - PUSSYCAT DOLLS ] THEY WERE HAWT THOUGH. THE WALK THERE WAS FUN, :D HAHA.

REACHED CINE. WENT TO ARCADE, SAW AMANDA CHERNGSHING RACHEL XUANYA AND BEECHNG. THEY CAME FROM BAND, THEY LEFT. KIM AND LYANNE DDR-ED. AFTER TWO ROUNDS, WE WENT TO GELARE. HAD ICECREAM WITH NOVELYN AND KIM HAD MILKSHAKE THAT TASTED LIKE MEDICINE. EW. WENT DOWN AFTER THAT, WAVED A CAB FOR KIM THEN THE REST OF THEM WENT OFF TO DIFFERENT BUSSTOPS. MY BUS CAME ALMOST IMMEDIATELY SO I BUSED HOME. WANTED TO GO DOWN TO BUY A CARDBOARD TO WRITE A HUGE FAREWELL MESSAGE TO DEAR, BUT COULDNT FIND ANY. I'LL THINK OF SOMETHING BETTER (: I AM OFF, READERS. DO LEAVE A TAG THOUGH :D NIGHTNIGHTS.

I JUST SAW MANY PEOPLE [ PEOPLE WHO WENT SENTOSA TODAY ] 'S BLOGS, AND THANK YOU FOR THE CONCERN! :D MY WOUNDS ARE BETTER, A LITTLE HURTING BUT I STILL CAN SURVIVE : D THANKS FOR TODAY, KIM MY BABYCAKES ; JO MY LAUGHING PARTNER ; SIHUI MY ATOMS ; JOY MY DROPS HEAD PARTNER ; LYANNE MY SUMO ; NOVELYN MY FURR ; MER MY SUNSHINE LOLLIPOP RUSH ; CELINE MY SOMEBODY ;D LETS HAVE OUR NEXT OUTING, EARLIER THIS TIME, SOOOON (:

DRACO MALFOYYYYYYYYYYYY. THE HAWTEST THING MAN.

2005-11-17T00:12:00.000+08:00

TODAY :D

taxi-ed down to meet lyanne. had lunch in the foodcourt at plaza sinagpura. long chats with lyanne. then mer came. we walked to heeren, lyanne's slipper broke so we went to buy shoes. lyanne regretted i guess, because she saw her slippers right after she bought her expensive heels. frustration. then i bought slippers too. we went to cine, mer had lunch whilst all three of us chatted. we saw michelle with her friends. went to buy another harrypotter ticket for kim. bused to stc. we walked to bukit permai to use the loo and buy drinks then we went to stc bus stop. waited for kim to come out then bused back to town.

WE CAUGHT HARRY POTTER! AHYEEPAPA. IT WAS SPECTACULAR THOUGH THEY CUT OUT ALOT OF SCENES AND MALFOY WAS HAWT OKAY. EEVRYTIME MALFOY COMES TO SCREEN, KIM WILL GRAB MY HAND. BECAUSE WE BOTH LOVE MALFOY :D DANG, HE IS LIKE THE HOTTEST THING ALIVE MAN. WHALIAO. OKAY, CHILL. HAHAHAHA. THEN THE NEXT FUNNY THING HAPPEN, I FORGOT TO BRING ERR, PAD. THEN LYANNE AND I WERE CONVERSING ABOUT HOW UNFORTUNATE IT WAS THEN SUDDENLY SOMEONE WENT ; I HAVE PAD. THEN THAT PERSON PASSED TO LYANNE UNDER THE CUBICLE WHO PASSED TO ME. OHMYGOD, THATS SO NICE. GIRLPOWER :D HAHAHAHHAH. THATS WHAT FEMALES AND NOT MALES WILL DO. HOHOHOHO.

okay, then we suppered at mos burger. then we walked to heeren taxi stand, i cabbed home. there were so many frigging lizards near the toilet, and i needed the loo urgently okay. i was damn freaked out, i detest lizards. i had bad experiences with them. so i went to the master bedroom toilet and bathed, changed as well. then caleld jo for awhile, hung off. okay, i need to rush people. bye! big gang outing on saturday, and tomorrow too :D i cant wait!

2005-11-15T22:53:00.000+08:00

harrryy pottteeeerrrr.

i am talking to melissa tong, kimberely kan, lo puiyee and some others i just closed their convo windows online. and i discovered that, guys do have things against bungs. well, vice versa too (: sometimes, its just best to sit back and watch the flames fire :D eh, i want the malaysia girls to come back leh. and tomorrow, howhowhow. sophia's house? lyanne's house? sentosa? town? HAWHAW. i will sms joy or sophia later on to find out. so meanwhile, i think i am going offline. i'm tired and i've been freaking irritated the past few weeks due to the absence of my life-support. my mp threeeeeeeeeeee. ahyah, eat shit readers, i am out.

if you are freaking passive, then let the guy know. whats the point of hiding your damn identity and leading the people on. its like abandoning your ownself. but if you're gonna be straight, so be it. i am moodswinging, its a random post. i just detest girls who cant decide whether they are straight or lesbian. its not a forever thing, but at least live with the fact that you are of a certain label and not fraternize with another label knowing that you are not supposed to do so. OH FUCK IT. SCREW WHAT I SAID, I DONT THINK I AM GONNA TALK ABOUT THIS ANYMORE. GOODBYE.

DROP IT DOWN AND TOUCH THE GROUND.

2005-11-15T22:03:00.000+08:00

LIKE A BELLY DANCER :D

towned today. met mer at harbourfront then met lyanne at plaza. went to cine and met up with novelyn, sophia, joy and sihui. we bought tickets for harry potter tomorrow, the sneak preview :DDDD then sihui and lyanne ddr-ed. mer, sophia, joy and me, car raced. later we bumped into valeire, puiyee and qiyang. joy talked to them for awhile. saw victoria, rahmuna and abigail when i was walking about with sophia. sophia's pants and polo tee matched my hand bag so she carried for me. saw charmaine, michelle and michelle. haha. we walked about, walked to heeren and then back to cine. pastamania for late lunch. off to shaw centre. on the way, was talking to novelyn. waited and rested there till kim came out with her friends. didnt really saw hello because i think kim was blind, she couldnt see me. ass lah, i didnt really care so walked off with the rest. thank you joy, for holding my handbag today when i was too lazy to do so :D lyanne was being retarded at lido, -____- we walked to far east, slacked around then juli came with her friends. i was irritating sihui with ' why ' s. haha. juli and friends left, then everyone except lyanne and me left. we bought skirts then jui came to meet us, rushed home after a failed attempt of last minute decisions for tomorrow with lyanne. so 7am at sophia's house huh, set. haha. joy hasnt messaged yet and i dont have her number. alamak.

changed then went downstairs. speeded to SGH to visit grandfather. relatives and calvin were there. talked a little to calvin who was finishing his olevels and he wanted to try the sethoscop -____- he still said i was too young when he was basically acting like a small boy. i want his sneakers man, damn. when i asked for it, he said ' negative '. haha. allrighties, suppered with parents then walked home from coffee shop. bathed, called jo after she smsed me and kim called me after she missed called me. and here i am.

GRIND WITH ME :D

2005-11-13T22:52:00.000+08:00

I LEARNT HOW TO RIDE A BIKE TODAY :DDDDDD
thanks to YILE and ELIS :D THANKYOU FOR BEING EVER-SO-PATIENT WITH ME.
NOW MR WAYNE CANNOT LAUGH AT ME. HOHOHOHO.

MET YILE AND WAYNE AT ONE PLUS THEN WE TRAINED DOWN TO SENGKANG.
THEY WERE TALKING ABOUT INDIANS AND LITTLE INDIA. I WAS SUPPOSED TO GET DOWN AT LITTLE INDIA AND WAYNE WAS SUPPOSED TO GET DOWN AT CHINATOWN. YILE WAS BEING SUPER ANNOYING IN THE TRAIN, BUT SHE WAS BETTER AFTER THAT. HAHA.
I THINK YILE BELONGS IN PHILIPPINES. HEEE. WE MET UP WITH TIFFANY AND ELIS AT COMPASS THEN WE BUSED TO THE COURT. PHYLLIS, CHICK, MAYBELLE, PAM, SHANTEL AND COUPLE OF OTHERS WERE THERE. AND THE GUYS WERE THERE TOO. PLAYED AND PLAYED. THE MATCH AT THE END WAS FUNN. OUR TEAM, PAM MAYBELLE PHYLLIS WAYNE AND ME WON. HEH. THAT MATCH WAS KINDA ROUGH. CHAIPENG WAS A LITTLE PEEVED OFF BUT OHWELLS, SHE WAS ALLRIGHT AFTER THAT. YILLING THREW AWAY HER MEMORIES OF THE PAST RELATIONSHIP. I THINK IT WAS BRAVE OF HER :DMOST GUYS ARE, J**KS.

WENT HOME CLOSE TO NINE WITH WAYNE. WE HAD MAJOR TALKING SESSION, THATS WHY THE TRAIN RIDE SEEMED SO SHORT. WAITED VERY LONG FOR THE BUS AFTER I BOUGHT BREAKTALK FOR MY FAMILY THEN BOARDED THE BUS AND HOMED. NO MORE EYECANDY, NO MORE. GOODNIGHT READERS, PLEASE LEAVE A TAG.

SHE'S A MYSTERY.

2005-11-12T22:09:00.000+08:00

HULLO :D

towned in the afternoon. supposed to meet ruth but she couldnt get out so changed up at one plus then sped to ps. met elizabeth, chick, maybelle, pamela and sinyee first. arcaded then foodcourt. saw cherngshing, valerie and beechng. talked to bitch for a while. then later on, saw eyecandy. about to be, eyecandy-not-to-be. kim, lyanne, juli and jo came later on. fried ice cream :D haha. we walked to cine, tons of people over there. bumped into kimberley and her friend. i like kim's belt, rawh. met cherngshing and geok ying for a split moment when jo and juli were queing for tickets behind them. haha. left town at five plus for home. later on, swam at country club. dinnered with neighbours. carried one-month nicholas and walked till he fell asleep. i carried him for two hours :D nicholas has a rugged look, more like a rugby player kinda face. its attractive, hah. young infants are so adorable, they bring forth a sense of peace when you gaze at them. reached home at ten plus, here i am. haha.

i thank god that i am able to look forward and no longer look back :D
the sense of relief i seeked for, it overwhelms. let bygones be bygones, thats what they say (:
thankyou :P

bballing again tomorrow at sengkang, i cant wait. heh heh. kimberly's going off tomorrow, ): and also, ashley cherngshing jaey adeline and many others. safe trip, y'all (: oh and before i forget, HAPPY THIRD MONTH BITCH :D i love you, dearest. thats all readers, goodnight.

BUTTERSWEET.

2005-11-11T22:38:00.000+08:00

so buttersweeet :D

i stayed home today. didnt feel like going out.

I SHOULD HAVE GONE TO BBALL. BUT MAYBE, NOT.

i dont know. kimberly chua just said that if i dont ddr tomorrow with her, she shant town with me. whaaliao. what kinda of babycakes is this. help me, jo ): hahahha.

allrighties, short post. blogging tomorrow.

HAPPY BABYCAKES DAY ; FOURTH MONTH :D

MY SECRET, (:

2005-11-10T18:27:00.000+08:00

xuewen : alamak, i saw wangzi only when i was at a friend's house, not your blog, i dont even read it often. and its the small eyed guy from star idol that i was talking about.

linsin : HEY BABYBOY :DDD

chick : CHICCCK! HAHAHAH DENIAL.

phyllis : ALAMAK! -FAAINTS. AHYEEEEEEEE.

zhaolin : I GOT TO SEE YOU TOO (: HEEEEEHEEE.

elis : HAHAH MORE HUGS IN FUTURE OKAY ? :D

yile : HURHURHUR, I ROCK MORE, SCIENTIST.

wayne : EH, ADVERTISEMENTS NOT FREE YOU KNOW. HAAH.

kimberley : BLERGH. YAY RIGHT.

josephine : LAUGHING PARTNER <3

charlotte : hey charlotte :D

rachael : HAO PENG YOU (: I MISSED YOU TONS MAN.

bapok : EH BAPOK, MY PRESENT EH ? i love you alssso.

sam : HEY ROCKER (: REALLY HUH? HAHAHA. i didnt think so you know. i think my posts are a little too compo like. heh.

yane : EH BESSSTFRIENDDD, where have you disappeared to ?!

OKAY, THATS ALL FOR RECENT TAGS. THANK YOU FOR THE TAGS, IT MADE ME SMILE FOR THE FIRST TIME IN DAYS. THANKYOU (:

i miss playing basketball with them at sengkang eh. but then, i doubt i will be able to go back with all the awkwardness starting soon. haiyah, i dont think i'll elaborate much here. went out with kimberely today, had lunch and chatting session at crystal jade then we went assessment books shopping at popular. on the way there, bumped into joy and sophia :D we spent quite some time picking the books, it was fun in a few ways. i havnt gotten social studies assessment out of all the subjects, damn. and kim needs maths assessment. so i guess we'll go on another assessment books shopping spree another day. i spent 60over bucks on the books and kim spent about 80bucks. cabbed and dropped kim home.

its hard to to deny the stiring of emotions in this impossibility.

PLAYING IN THE RAIN (:

2005-11-09T21:04:00.000+08:00

HEY :DD

TODAY WAS ENJOYABLE. HEHHEH. dad dropped me at harbourfront and then later met yile on the train. we took 372 from sengkang interchange and met up with the rest. phyllis, sinyee, linsin, huiyan, pamela, chick and elizabeth. yiling came later on and the other guys as well. they left for compass for a while, so yile and me played basketball for awhile. the black shirt guy's bike stunts were totally awesome man. they came back with wayne who met them there then we played volleyball and basketball. wayne looks like a sardine and linsin was trying to best me at volleyball. hahahah. wayne has a twwiiiinnnn. hahahahah. and also, chick's boyfriend-to-be was there, hawhawhaw.

then it started to drizzle, we were all rushing to get our stuff in the shelter then almost all of us went out to the rain and play basketball/volleyball. WE PLAYED IN THE RAIN :) i was trying to make linsin iceskate then in the end she fell on her butt and butt skate. sinyee as well. hahha. fooled around in the rain for a while till six plus then yile, wayne and me left. we cabbed down and it was a heavy traffic. dropped them at outram then i went on my way home. the cab fare was 16bucks man. reached home just in time to watch wang zi (: missed only ten minutes of wang zi. then star idol came on, i think the small eyed guy is goodlooking but who knows if he can act. haha, we'll see.

i want to play bball like today again :D IT WAS FUN (: eyeeecaaaandddddy didnt come down to play bbaaaalllll. alaaamaaaaak. ELIZABETHHHHH ! okay, my post shall end here, short one today due to lazy fingers. i need my mp3, life support back soon. else, i'll just die man. goodbye readers.

since you've been gone, i've felt like that.

2005-11-09T10:02:00.000+08:00

i know you care. i know you do allrights. but forget what i said lah, its not gonna matter anyway. i dont want us to drift but we're drifting like nobody's business. i know you dont want me to get hurt, that you dont want me to start doing silly stuff but just believe me for once? even if i do start all that, i dont mind if you dont care anymore. i just hope that just this time, you believe in what i am capable of handling myself with. its not easy if you get what i mean, but i guess i do have to face the past once more. noone said its gonna be easy, i didnt say i didnt appreciate your care. and for the town thing, just forget what i said allright. maybe i said it in anger because its been bothering me for quite some time but just screw what i say. you're entitled to enjoy yourself, so be it.

i dont want us to drift you see. but maybe, its all unavoidable. two more days to the 11th, sigh. god, i feel like vanishing from the face of earth again. but its not like its gonna matter. i'm sorry, if thats gonna make any difference i wouldn't know. screwed post.

- worthless.

the flying blood.

MORNING POST ; I'M A TIRED GIRL.

2005-11-09T09:37:00.000+08:00

HELLLO :D

BASKETBALL AGAIN TODAY :D today will be a much bigger crowd with phyllis that side having linsin, huiyan, sinyee, chick, eliz they all. and i will be meeting yile, tiffany, elis and maybe wayne. i dont know who else already but the court will be kinda full today i suppose. hawhaw. i am very very tired and i dont feel like getting up but i know i will get killed if i dont. bawh, i am very tiired. the phonecalls till latelate at night didnt help. i need sleeep :X

just replired tx's email, it was a long one about yesterday's events in the non-summarised form. i neevr get sick of scandalous by mis-teeq you know. i have to bathe like, soon and meet yile they all on the outram platform. damn, i'll be really tired man. goodbye people, stay tuned for tonight's post or if i am too tired tomorrow morning's post. byebye readers :D

2005-11-08T23:13:00.000+08:00

OH GOODNESS GRACIOUS ME.

I HAVE TO CALL PHYLLIS, KIMBERELY, YANE, WENNA AND WAYNE LIKE RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT.

OHMYSHIT, YILE, CALL WAYNE YOURSELF LEHH. ONCE I MAKE ONE PHONECALL, I CANT PUT DOWN. HEH HEH. OHSHIT, PHONECALLS HERE I COME.

2005-11-08T22:21:00.000+08:00

today started off as kinda irritating.
wanted to town BUT COULDNT FIND ANYONE. apparently MOST of them were already in town. ohfuck, forget it lah. kimberley was in town with her friends and she wanted me to join her but i forgo that thought. wenna was with her friends at far east but didnt join them in the end as well. then the rest were already in town. called phyllis and she practically demanded me to come down to compass that side to play bball. so OKAY, I WENT. talked to kimberley on the way there and then bused down to phyllis's place. saw chaipeng and phyllis waiting for me. then we went there. played for a longlong time eh. :DDDD it was a long trip there but bball was fun. volleyball was fun too. AWESOME :)

pam sent me to the busstop and i went home with her rose :D YAY. hahaha. took an hour to come back. 0.- okay, i might be going tomorrow. going to phyllis's place again, with yile and maybe wayne. its gonna be another stinky journey back but i aint complaining. unless the bus occupants next to me are :DDD HEEHEEE. allrighties, gooodbye readers.

2005-11-07T20:19:00.000+08:00

THIS IS WHAT WAYNE REQUESTED FOR ME TO HELP HER DO, SO PLEASE READ THE BOTTOM NOTICE ;

WAYNE HAS GOT A CHALET AT COSTA SANDS BESIDE ESCAPE. ITS A TWO-STOREY CHALET ON THE 23RD, 24TH AND THE 25TH. ANYONE AND EVERYONE IS WELCOMED AND PLEASE MESSAGE ME 98304236 IF YOU KNOW ME OR YOU CAN MESSAGE WAYNE 91267653 OR YILE 97897403 IF YOU ARE INTERESTED OR FOR FURTHER ENQUIRES . YOU MIGHT NEED TO CHIP IN SOME MONEY FOR THE EXPENSES OR FOR THE STAY THERE BUT THE AMOUNT IS NOT CONFIRMED, IT HAS TO DEPEND ON THE NUMBER OF PEOPLE COMING. THERE WILL BE BARBEQUE ON BOTH NIGHTS AND ITS ALSO A SLEEPOVER. FURTHER DETAILS WILL BE UPDATED.

OKAY DONE. PLEASE COME DOWN ON BOTH DAYS AND LET US KNOW YOU'RE COMING. THANKYOU FOR YOUR KIND ATTENTION. GOODBYE READERS.

I'LL KEEP YOU MY DIRTY LITTLE SECRET

2005-11-07T13:43:00.000+08:00

met wanru at far east yesterday, she cut hair. then we walked to cine to buy tickets for exorcism of emily rose. went galilee for lunch then we went heeren for snow ice. hmms. juli peh, jiabao and their three friends came down to cine to find us. jiabao looks different ((: chatted for a while, juli made wanru and me laugh alot. then the both of us went upstairs to catch the movie, saw some familiar people near the theatre :D hehheh. the show was rather nice, a little frightening but the girl acting as emily rose is GOOD (:

met up with juli after the movie then we walked down to paragon. the conversation on the way there was hilarious. hoho. sumay and joy came later on. then wanru and joy left at about eight. walked about with juli and sumay. flash and splash :DD laughed alot there. hehheh. juli was spastic, she told the salesguy that she finds him cute. she said she couldnt take it, he was too cute. ohmans. but he was cute :DD ate strawberries dipped in this chocolate fountain near heeren then juli flagged a cab for me, i sped home. talked to josephine ; laughingpartner on the phone for two hours than hung off. i was talking nonsense as usual.

morning, awoke at close to 11. was supposed to meet juli they all but i guess there were no confirmed plans so decided to go out with tracce for movie later. we're meeting at 3.20 (: going out with her sorta remind me of the times last year where jiali, tracce, krystal and me will go bowling then movies or arcade at greatworld. sometimes it involved valerie and felicia and those times were memorable (: tracce still owes me a tedddy beeaaarrr. hahah. its just me and tracce, like the start of this year when it was just the both of us watchign hitch (: and many other shows togther, i love this mushu. mushu and mosquito :D

okay, thats all. i'll blog tomorrow maybe. tomorrow's talking partners' day (: i think i'll go pay cornell a visit at her working place. hehheh. see first. thursday, meeting up with kim for our rare chatting sessions. i miss lolstwin, =) allrighties, thats all for today's post. bye readers, enjoy your holidays.

2005-11-03T21:26:00.000+08:00

SORRY IT GOT CUT OFF. MY HANDS SHOOK. DUI BU QI. PLEASE READ THE BELOW POST FOR TODAY'S SENTOSA OUTING (:

ANOTHER EMOTIONAL POST.

2005-11-03T20:56:00.000+08:00

OKAY, TODAY WAS REALLLLY FUN <33

THE PICTURES ARE ON THEIR WAY SO MEANWHILE....

THIS IS A SHOT OF THE ENTIRE GANG OF US PRESENT AT SENTOSA BEFORE WE STARTED LEAPING INTO THE WATER AND PLAYING GAMES.

THANKS FOR THE FUN, YOU'ALL (:

SENTOSA WAS FUNN. THE STRIPPING PARTS, THE RUGBY PARTS, THE CAPTAIN'S BALL PARTS, THE BATHING PARTS, THE CHOOCHOOTRAIN PARTS, THE SWIMMING OUT TO THE OCEAN PARTS ETC, THEY WERE ALL MEMORABLE AND STORED IN MY HEART (: THE BUSRIDE BACK TO HARBOURFRONT AND THE NOISY RUNNING FROM ONE END OF THE INTERCHANGE TO ANOTHER TO CATCH 65, THE ROWDY BUS JOURNEY WITH MANY WEIRD/NICE PICTURES TAKEN, THEY WERE ALL MEMORIES (:

LUNCH AT CINE FOODCOURT, NUMEROUS NEOPRINTS AT HEEREN, WANTON MEE AND EATING SWEETS BOTH AT THE GRAFFITI CAFE AND OUTSIDE THE NEOPRINTS SHOP. THEY WERE ALL SMALL ACTS OF UNITEDNESS WE HAD IN US. THE VOW AND PRAYER WE MADE ON THE BEACH FOR OUR BELOVED TEACHER AND EVERY SINGLE ONE OF SECTWOBAYE'S GIRLS, THAT WAS THE MOST TREASURABLE REMEMBERANCE.

TODAY HAS BEEN GREAAAAAT. THE BOARD, MADE BY OUR CRAZY CHARIPERSON - CHERNGSHING AND MANY OTHERS, IT WAS TERRIFIC. WITH YANLING AS OUR CRAZY [FROG] VICECHAIR, KELLYLOW AS OUR CLASS FLIRT. [HAWHAWHAW]. ME AS THE SOCIALIST, THOUGH I STILL DONT KNOW WHY. NATALIE AS OUR TALL GIRAFFE, GEN AS OUR CHEERLEADER. GEOKYING AS OUR STRICT POLAR. HAHAH THATS FUNNAYE. JUSTINE IS THE TIMID LAUGHING QUEEN. HAHAHAHHAHA,. THATS EVEN FUNNIER. MICHELLE POSSESS THE WEIRD LAUGHTER. OKAY, THIS BRINGS THE MOST LAUGHTER. SHA IS NICKNAMED THE LITTLE TREE. BIGBIGBIG EYES ON THE TREE. RACHEL AS THE EMOTIONALIST. AND ALSO, MANYMANY MORE THAN I CANNOT REMEMBER AT THE MOMENT :DDD

LISTEN TO SAYING GOODBYE BY SCLUB AND PLEASE DONT CRY. BECAUSE DEEP DOWN WE KNOW 2BERNADETTE CANNOT BE SPLIT APART BY OUR SOULS. PHYSICALLY, WE WOULDNT BE TOGETHER, BUT MENTALLY WE'LL BE AS ONE. THATS ALL FOR MY SPEECH, THANK YOU (:

PS, I THINK EVERYONE KNEW WHO JUSTINE&ME'S EYECANDY WAS. PINK SHIRT, HAWHAW. OHWELLS. HE CAN GO EAT SHIT, LEAVE SO EARLY AND SHOW OFF BY SMOKING. NO MORE EYECANDY, ERR URRH. AND KELLYLOW HUIPING, YOU SAW HIM AGAIN AT BUKIT TIMAH. HAWHAWHAWHAWHAW.

SAYING GOODBYE <3 i love this song

2005-11-02T11:50:00.000+08:00

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

[Chorus]
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we'd never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other, standing on the same street corner though it rains
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only i could stop the World i'd make this last

[Chorus]
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way i feel

[Chorus]
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
Because a true love never dies

SECONDARY TWO BEE (:

LONGEST POST! CHAAAALEEEEEEEET :D

2005-11-01T14:40:00.000+08:00

HEY (:
i'm back from chalet ! :DD i think it was REAAAALLY FUN.

on sunday, went to tiong to meet olivia. i was complaining about the heaviness of my bag and olivia said it was super light. lyanne chua's bag was heavy, hahah. reached costa sands then we met up with sumay and celine. then later on, lyanne came. we couldnt check it till two. so at two we went in and placed our stuff before heading off to wild wild wet ! :D the shiok river was the first, and it was retarded. celine and me kept screaming for each other and all of us kept screaming after getting separated. we took the ular-lah, and there were these four irritating boys around our ages imitating our screamings. it was fucking annoying lah.

they even cussed at us when we squeezed in under the down pour of water from the yakult. eat my shit, you creatures with ____ okay, then lyanne and me went to take the U-shaped ride and it was scary at first :\ but allright later on. we took twice then later on another time each but with different people. kim came so we accompanied her back to the chalet to put her stuff then we went back to wildwildwet. kim and me took the U-shaped ride after all of us took the ular-lah and we lost the others. decided to sit on the floats of the river until we see them. and we sat manymany times before heading to the tsunami. tsunami's so FUN ! (: the waves that were generated kept making all of us separate and olivia wong was so spastic. you should have seen her scream when she was let go from us all. and she almost drowned me but we're even because i accidentally made her scratch herself on the wrist and she made it seem like she got cut by some metal knife. TSK.

olivia went off then we had dinner. all of us bathed and dressed up like we're going clubbing or something. with the eyeliner and the marks on our faces, it was fun. i think my eyeliner was the thickest. HOHO. met up with juli then we drank shakes and lattes at cafe cartel at midnight. juli, me and celine were fighting for the chocolate cake. man. when we walked down to lido, we found out there was no movies and so after lazing around at macs, we took two cabs back to costa sands. i swear celine can sleep any where on me. sumay and celine slept on my shoulder at the back of the cab and kim was infront as we speeded back to the chalet. i cant remember what happened but all i know is that juli peh slept with my mp3, that LOSER. hoho.

the next day, 2B girls came in the afternoon! :DD then juli they all wanted to go town but i decided not to go with them when we were all at the busstop. was still hesitating when kim messaged me saying that there wouldnt be anyone accompaning her to do hair extensions, i felt damn mean but still went back to 2B chalet next door to ours. watched initial d , SHAWN'S HAWWT. then went out to cheers to sponser some drinks for the class. after that came back, and was rather angry over a comment made by one or two of them so i went next door instead and entertained myself. ahyah, but forget it lah. no point brooding over it. thanks to kelly- son, geokying- daughter, sam- rocker, gen- rubbish and some others that tried to cheer me up. i appreciated it. and katie too, for the sweeet message. THANKS Y'ALL.

i rushed down to town in the evening. went to orchard station and kim picked me up. went to wheelock and met up with juli, lyanne, jo, nobel, wanru, sumay and celine. we bought drinks from orange julius than walked to fareast. OHMYGOD, I TELL YOU HUH, HALLOWEEN HALLOWEEEN. SO MANY PEOPLE DRESSED UP EH. and there was this guy dressed up as greenday's frontman and he looked damn cool except for the fact that he looked kinda beng as well. nobel, jo and juli left at far east, so we walked down to cine AND OHMYGODDDDDD. so many people were dressed up for halloween! and we took pictures with this group of guys who looked so scary and there was this guy who had wires all over his face and it went through his lip piercing and ear hole. HE LOOKED SO COOL MAN, and his girlfriend dressed up as some girl who lost her baby or something, with blood over her white dress.

the pictures were kinda blurred but still nice. THE GUY IN WHITE DAMN CUTE EH, BUT WE DIDNT TAKE PICTURE. OHMYCOW OKAY. and everyone said my taste was the first from the last. only celine said he was OKAY. SAD EH SADDDDD. this is the funniest part, we ran around town screaming HAPPY HALLOWEEN! to everyone okay. me, lyanne, celine, wanru and sumay were the front people. and kim was our secret weapon, HUAZELEI -_-" HAHAH. we walked down until we reached PS then we sat at burgerking. it was 11pm by then. all of us were crazy, running on the escalator that was going opposite our direction and thankgod we didnt get caught. we took the last train back and we were lucky that we also boarded the last bus back to chalet. there was some guys outside cheers that were discriminating lesbians, GO EAT SHIT LAH. so you think you'all GAY then you'all can disturb us huh? no offense to gays/guys, but the guys were fuck IRRITANTS. drank absolute vodka back at the chalet after me and kim ate instant noodles. they said i had red rashes on my face, HUHHHHH :(( then slept.

this morning, was awoken by the louuuuuud noises next door created by SEC TWO BEE DEAREST. but i am a heavy sleeper, so i could go back to sleep. HEH. we changed up and packed then juli and sumay left. wanru, celine, lyanne, kim and me ate at macs. celine and me headed home whilst the rest went escape. took a long train ride home whilst talking alot with celine and then bused home. HERE I AM :D OKAY, THIS IS A SUPER LONG POST MAN. MY LONGEST, EVVVVVERRRR.

THE LENTHY ONE (: SUGAR WE'RE GOING DOWN.

2005-10-29T01:54:00.000+08:00

secondary two bernadette left lasting memories of the best value :D

tears were shed today in the riffel range. i guessed everyone didnt want to leave. its hard to after two whole long years. many people were so sad about it, and after i saw someone cried i teared. almost everyone did i guess. it was reassuring hugging classmates knowing that it might be the last time we hug them and the last time we do things as a class. we entered the hall with redred eyes, and i bet we're the only emotional class. and thats good, because we showed our feelings instead of bottling them down.

the reason to start over new

the reason brought back memories and graduation day brought tears. class photos were taken after the concert and report books were given out. disappointment ): pondered and reflected on the way home. reached home, bathed and changed up before cabbing to town to meet nic and the rest. met at cine, saw alot of stc people. wayne's pink hair, hawhawhaw. wenna came with lorraine eyecandy and rae chiobugf, wenna gave me chocolates (: I LOVE MY PRINCE. went to the arcade, some stuff happened then later we went to paragon. we met ruth and vanessa there. and had a lengthy talk with cornell after which i decided to go meet kim, mer, lyanne and charlene.

walked down to cine and bumped into krys they all again. nic sent me to the third escalator, we saw somebody somebody somebody : ohgoodness gracious me. kim, jo and jiayi were coming down so me and kim sent them off before we went up to galilee to meet the rest. laura, kelly, celine they all were there. had a drink, ate lyanne's expensive banana cake with celine then went to arcade. wasnt feeling very happy and wanted to dye hair so headed over to krystal's place which is where i am now. my hair's dark red, not obvious at all. eat shit man. smsed kim and wayne while dyeing hair, hawhawhaw. might dye again tomorrow, see first.

HAPPY SECOND MONTH MELISSA TONG! ITS SUNSHINE DAY !! i dont know if i should town tomorrow. sometimes it doesnt matter even if you neglect my pressence or my absence but all i want you to know is that the truth is what matters and stop friggin exaggerating things all the time. the reason we drifted was that and now that we're closer, it might be the reason for me to close up again. you havent changed, and maybe i havent either.

SECONDARY TWO BEEEE.

2005-10-27T13:48:00.001+08:00

SECONDARY TWO BERNADETTE (:

everyone, thank you for the memories. x)

geography class today was emotional. i guess mr sng was right when he said that his words hit us at a sensitive spot. tears were shed and you could see everyone's faces. most of us didnt want to leave the class and thinking about the fact that it would be the final time we'll have a lesson with mr sng in the commerce room and hearing his jokes that always make the whole class laugh at him or with him. because, its the end. the end of secondary two ): its not easy to leave since all of us will be seperated. the efl camp, literature on stage, racial harmony dance, geography lessons, captains ball etc, they all left deep scars. when i left the room, i reminsced as i made my way home early today.

we bonded as one, as a class. today was the unofficial last day we had together. playing captains ball and floor ball the whole day. captains ball with numerous groupings and unhappy faces at first but smiling ones after that. freeze and melt after recess and all that screaming on court regardless of the amount of attention we unknowingly seeked, WE HAD FUN AS A CLASS. although there were missing people and some were absent. pictures from formal to ahlian to worldpeace [twisttwist] were taken. we were the only class that played together the whole day from morning after mr francis's talk to second last period with a 45minutes break in between.

CLASS PARTY AT LIGHTHOUSE TOMORROW ! WOOHOO (: lets hope mr sng can come and join us. tomorrow's the LAST so lets make it all FUN FUN and more FUN :DD

i still cant bear to leave.

REMINSICNG.

2005-10-25T15:33:00.000+08:00

you just dont love me no more.

the cinderella's story <3<3 its awesome. the ending was great.
didnt go to schoo; today, gastric decided to make a detour back into my stomach and till now, i am feeling worse than ever. i actually stretched out my hand out of the window just to feel the raindrops, and i didnt even know the reason why i did that for. i just felt like doing it.

are you a hundred percent sure that tomorrow will come ?

not everyone on this planet on even in this country is able to see tomorrow come. and even if it does come, so what. i believe in living my day to the fullest, (:
the rain has got me thinking and reminscing. i dont even know what i want to do anymore.

I may not say those words anymore. But maybe I can make it my way

ITS ALL ABOUT USSS (:

2005-10-21T21:05:00.000+08:00

ALL ABOUT US -- TATU.

i think that song totally rocks :DDD

the NE trail pre-tour for the guides today. it was rather tiring i suppose. and i was whining to my group members all afternoon about POKEY. hahah, sorrrry. i was craving for pokey, MAJOR CRAVING just now. i didnt understand why, so dont bother pondering about it. i like labrador park, watching the breeze and all. zhenyi spoilt it by complaining about the sand that was blowing in her direction. chickenpoop lah she. after recess, had productive gossip session today with amanda and qianru, got updated on some stuff and happenings and let out a bit of mine. mr tan talked to me for a while, and i concluded he is kinda nice even after i got into alot of shit for him for the entire year. its been an eyeopener, 2005. and now, school term's coming to an end )):

would you feel like an idiot if your eyecandy stands about 10metres away from you and you didnt notice at all. someone, please kill me now. i am putting all about us on repetition, until i get tired of that song. tomorrow, might be watching the wig with jo, lyanne and juli. wenna cant make it, )): laughing partner, is it just us four ? SMS ME OKAYYY.

i kinda like the feeling of cooping myself at home with dozens and dozens of romance novels. i cant even remember if i have any plans to go out during the holidays. aights, i gotta run, night readers (:

REGRETS,

2005-10-20T14:23:00.000+08:00

REGRETS

i hate having regrets, i hate feeling the sense of emptiness //
be it friends or love.

i cant go on this way, regretting my moves after i make them. i dont seem to learn my lesson, each and everytime. yeah, i'm tired. but i dont think there's much i can do about it. i just want to be promoted, thats all. the rest doesnt have to be said.

i still feel very empty, like there's something missing. everything seems wrong now. this post's random and extremely emotional. please ignore, thankyou. the scars healed, how about now? i dont know whats going on anymore. bye readers.

ASHLEY'S BIRTHDAY BASH! ((:

2005-10-19T21:43:00.000+08:00

THANKS ASHLEY FOR THE GREAAAAAAAT PARTY (:
i love you my darling.

THERE IS THIS HEARTSHAPED RED MARK ON MY LEG, AND ITS BEEN THERE SINCE VERY LONG AGO. AND ITS ITCHY. MICHELLE AND THE OTHERS SAY ITS A LOVE BITE. -SCOFFS. YEAH RIGHT.

MET YANLING THEN WENT TO TOWN TO MEET CHERNGSHING AND PICK UP FBTS FROM ANGEL (: THANKYOU ANGEL! THEN WE MET FER AND GERALDLYN. BUMPED INTO SOPHIA AND CELINE AS WELL. WENT TO WISMA WITH CHERNGSHING AND YANLING TO BUY THE SURFBABE BAG (: I LIKE I LIKE I LIKE IT. HAHAHAHAH. LATER, BUSED TO ASHLEY'S PLACE. WE WERE TALKING ABOUT THE EFL CAMP AND (: HAHAHAH, INSIDE JOKES ABOUT OUR CLASSMATES WHEN WE HAD TO CLIMB THE WALL. HEEHEEE.

AT ASH'S PLACE, WE PLAYED QUITE SOME GAMES. THE TASTING ONE, OUR GROUP HAD THE BEST INGREDIENTS (: PEANUT BUTTER EHH. HAHAHHA.
THE SWIMMING AND WATER BOMB PARTS WERE AWESOME (: HAHAHAH AND I PIGGYBACKED GEN IN THE WATER! THE PIZZA WAS FILLING AND THE SAUNA WAS DAMN FUN! HAHAH I CAME OUT WITH RED RED FACE AND MY HANDS AND LEGS WERE RED TOO. SO MICHELLE THOUGHT I HAD A SUNTAN OR SOMETHING. GEN DRIED HER CLOTHES ON ME SOMEMORE. HOHOH.

LATER WENT TO ASH'S PLACE, WATCHED TONG XIN YUAN. CURSING AT DAQIU AND TRYING TO GET INFORMATION OUT OF NICOLE ABOUT THE PREVIOUS INCIDENT HAPPENINGS. LAUGH GAGS FOR 15MINUTES. HAHAH, THEN AMAZING RACE. (: WOOOOHOOOO, THE WEAVER FAMILY! AHHHHH. MICHELLE AND ME LIKE :DD HAWT. HAHAHA, HIS HAIR IS HAWT. HOOOHOO.

WENT OUT TO GUARD HOUSE AND PARENTS WERE THERE SO WENT HOME. DROPPED BY PETROL STATION AND I BOUGHT TEENAGE WITH HERMIONE ON IT. (: I HAVENT READ IT YET. BUT MALFOY BETTER BE IN IT, ELSE I WILL SCREAM. OKAY, IF HE ISNT IN IT. I WILL SCREAM TOOO. HEH HEH. ACTUALLY, I DONT SCREAM. (((:

ALLRIGHTIES, TIME TO UPLOAD NEW PICTURES INTO FRIENDSTER, (: HAWHAWHAW. BUT MY FILES ARE TOO LARGE, DAMN IT. OKAY, BYE READERS. ENJOY SCHOOL TOMORROW, HAWHAWHAW. =] ITS THE CAPITAL LETTERS MOOD TODAY (= WHEEHAH.

i'm all about you.

2005-10-17T16:38:00.000+08:00

i'm all about you -- aaron carter.

There's somethin' that

I've got to say
You're always with me
Even though, you're far away
Talkin to you on my cel
lJust the sound of your voice
Makes my heart melt
Oh girl, well it's true

I'm all about you
I'm all about us
No, baby, you never have
To question my love
And every night
There's a new crowd
But it's always you
That I'm singing about
There is only one these words
Are going out to
Oh girl, I'm all about you

I know you worry sometimes,
Some other girl will make me forget you're mine
There's not a doubt in this world
That anyone could take the
Place of my number one girl
It's true

I'm all about you
I'm all about us
No, baby, you never have
To question my love
And every night
There's a new crowd
But it's always you
That I'm singing about
There is only one these words
Are going out to
Oh girl, I'm all about you

When i close my eyes i can see you
It's like your right here
And this feeling's only gettin' stronger
You're with me everywhere

I'm all about you
I'm all about us
No, baby, you never have
To question my love
And every night
There's a new crowd
But it's always you
That I'm singing about
There is only one these words
Are goin' out to
Oh girl, I'm all about you

I'm all about you
I'm all about you
I'm all about you
I'm all about you....

SUGA SUGA.

2005-10-16T21:43:00.000+08:00

i just came back from my neighbour's place.

carrying the little infant thats three days old, with its soft alluring smell and all (: it was an undescribable feeling, its just so pretty. holding it for 3hours, it doesnt even make my arms feel tired. xD

the events are in summarised form so please pardon me.

on friday, went out to meet sihui, wenna and jo in town. went galilee then watched skeleton key in the afternoon. dropped sihui home then headed back. took my bag, changed my shirt than i scram. went to pacific plaze to meet kim & the kkn. later on, bumped into pamela, huiyan, elizabeth and their friends. ((: popcorn and sweetheart :D hahaha. had dinner with juli, kim and the others at wisma. zhihui was so funny (: juli peh is a mushroom, -.-'' hahaha. i enjoyed irritating her though. met wanru, sumay, celine and sihui at cine. sihui pooled then later we went off.

later at night. i tell you, chuasihui is the lamest shit that existed on earth. kim and me were laughing all night at the both wanru and sihui who were mock arguing. it was stupid (: at around one am, i slept with wanru at night on the floor. sihui and kim on the bed. chua sihui dropped a pillow on me late at night. and wanru was the last to awake, bleah. hahaha. saw kim's brother, (: later on close to one, we went to town. met sumay then sneaked into the preview lounge after juli came out to let us go in. we watched corpse bride for mere minutes then went out. pooled later on after meeting jo, then went to cine. a long stretch of events after that. later on at 1oplus, bused home. reached home at 1115. bathed and then, fell asleep.

allrighties, thats all for tonight. i am off to sleep, after checking friendster. nightnights.
kelly tan is my HAHAHA , you forgetful no. 100. i'll think of something, you too okay.

FOR I AM GUILTY.

2005-10-13T19:13:00.000+08:00

today's been screwed. FUCKIING SCREWED. the guilt made me do things i didn't want to, sigh. its too late to regret.

hey, i'm sorry dear. for telling out and all, but i didnt mean to. i really didnt. i'm surprised you still ask me to come over and all, because i didnt think you would. i really treasure what we have, and yeah, i wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. i let it slip to two people, and i am sorry i did. i didnt even recall promising you, i'm sorry. because you mean the sun, the moon and the world to me, and i hate to be the one that makes you upset. i want happiness for you, please don't be angry. i'm really really sorry.

the guilty one --
zhixian ]:

2005-10-12T13:20:00.000+08:00

i had a weird dream last night. it was really retarded. me, laura and mr sng. it was really hilarious. i was laughing really hard when i related it to laura and sumay. xDD

okay, maths one today! the paper was quite manageable, (: i overestimated it when ms sim said it was gonna be very tough. i hope i score (: after the paper, went to harbourfront with zhihui, mer and kim. studied while waiting for tenoclock to arrive, then we bought our food. was not feeling very happy just now so didnt talk alot i guess. was replying victoria, qiyang, kimmy and yane's messages while i was there. the phone kept vibrating, =X studied there til about 12 then we left. kim and mer went off together whilst me and zhihui walked around for a while. i decided on the skirt from reds, its nice but i havent tried it yet. so yeah, wait till i get the money and all then i'll be heading back. hahahah.

bused home, with my mp3. i dont think i can ever live without my mp3 okay, i'll just die. reached home, stoned awhile at the balcony then came online. i did alot of science revision today, eight chapters, i'm happy. later, i'll do more, (: allrighties, i am off to check out some websites. so buhbye (:

THANK YOU FPR TAGGING, Y'ALL. (: THE TAGS MAKE MY DAY ;

marcus : yeah, i love you too (:

yane : hahahah, who said i did. you vanished, you nehnehbu.

natalie : PL ((: i love you toooo.

sunshine : SUNSHINE !

vinee : GOSSIP PARTNER MUSHROOM ! hhahha, you think of it then you let me know? apple doesnt update her blog and moreover, its passwordize. lets have more gossip sessions at galilee soon ! (: i miss you.

geokying : POLAAAR (:

nicklaus : YO DADDY (: hahahaha, i missed you too lah. vanishing without a trace all the time, asshole.

sofea : SOFEA AH SOFEA AH.

xuewen : WHAT YUMYUM, you make it sound like you're eating someone. thats so gross man. hahahah. you like to flood my tagboard, i didn't know you love me so much. hahahah (: i love you too, daughter. burying! HAHAHAHAH.

melanie : YO KIASU PARTNER (:

lorraine : EYECANDY! i miss you =] and i love you tons too.

ashley : I LOVE ASHLEY'S EVER SO BRIGHT SMILE ! <3

natalie : PL ! I LOVE YOU ALOT ALOT.

bitch : EH BITCH, you forgot our anniversary okay you dumbbell. but i love you too, ROSES ROCK (:

natasha : AHCHEK! (: TWO MORE PAPERS! WOOHOO. i love you truckloads.

amanda : anytime you need me, I'LL BE HERE FOR YOU =) just as long as i see your smile.

xuewen : NO COMMENTS, HAHAHAHHAHHA. geography was tough. -frowns.

BECAUSE I PROMISED TO BE THERE FOR YOU, AND I'LL NEVER BREAK IT. NOW NOW, NOT EVER.

2005-10-11T17:48:00.000+08:00

sleepover at kim's house on friday.
:DDD i cant wait, (: with the others, though i dont know have any clue about the details.

today, geography paper.
it was utter rubbish. i forgot burying SHIT was landfills and happily put BURIAL. i think i lost quite a couple of marks and this time, i truly and utterly wrote garbage in the last section. okay, zhixian, you're dying. homed after the paper, kelly walked me down. it was an upsetting day i guess, and i wasn't in the mood to go out. had the sudden urge to visit sentosa but decided against it. stayed at home and fell asleep while thinking about the past events in these weeks.

there's the contender and shooting stars later on. i cannot cease studying for maths 1 tomorrow, so i think i better start now. bye, catch the next post later.

irritable.

2005-10-10T17:39:00.000+08:00

-- ;

hey, its not the number of friends one has that counts, its the number of reliable ones that exist. look through my posts, i don't go on and on about it, its just a mood detecter. you're making it seem like i am some self-sympathizing shit. but they were merely MOODSWINGS. it was just a passing mood, for a day or so? i appreciate you letting me know what you think but don't get the wrong idea of what i mean. also, i don't usually like to entertain anonymous tags, sometimes it does leave me kinda irritated about who actually reads and tags anonymously. let me know your name if you're comfortable. if not thanks... for the comment though.

the lit paper was rather manageable (:
my answers for the 8-9 marks question were kinda long, one full page each :\ i sure hope the details are relevant enough. the unseen poem was quite easy as well. MELANIE BECAME MY KIASU PARTNER after geraldlyn commented that both of us were quite kiasu. before the teacher greeted us, we were already out of our seats, hah. the indian teacher, mr sagrent created alot of laughs in the class when he came in. his accent's funny.

headed down town with cherngshing. we waited for a long time for galilee to open before lunching there. as usual, i couldn't finish my food. bitch as well, i spent the whole day teasing her about her best friend, it was kinda amusing to see her reaction though. heehee, realized tickets today weren't as expensive so we caught GOAL !

the movie was FANTASTIC, very inspirational. go catch it if you have the chance. its a good show, not some boring soccer-only kinda thing but an awesome movie (: later on, got out of cine and bused home. reached home, was a little tired so i slept for an hour or so. allrights, got to run. i need revision for geog tomorrow and tomorrow's babycakes day :DDD wednesday, its timon&pumba day but its maths 1 is on that day =X

2005-10-09T11:32:00.000+08:00

I LOVE PURPLE HELUM BALLOONS.
alex's birthday yesterday.
when i told him i liked purple balloons with limegreen ribbon, he immediately found one for me amidst the 50-60 over balloons.

i think that gesture's damn sweet. ((:
LIMEGREEN AND PURPLE <333

i am doing a OF MICE AND MEN quiz online to test myself for the lit exam tomorrow,
i think the website's very helpful (: go try it yourself, its awesome.

www.gradesaver.com/classicnotes/quiz/miceandmen/1/
NOW, THANK ME. HEEEHEEEHEEEE.

I LOVE YESTERDAY! GALILEE. (:

2005-10-08T10:03:00.000+08:00

I WOKE UP WITH A SMILE WHEN I SAW 10TESTIS WAITING TO BE APPROVED. =DDDD thank you thank you, for the testis.

YESTERDAY WAS FUNNNNN <3
stayed back with sumay to finish up her home econs sewing then we took a cab down to pick wenna up at tiong. headed to taka to meet wongwengyan and sugar diamonds. we walked around then down to heeren, met sophia lee wenzi, vinee gossip, joy drops head and yeemong. later on proceeded to cinee for lunch. olivia wong and me saw cherngshing's 'best friends' and also, -coughs pumba over there. HAKUNA MATATA, only my science partner understands. ((: then we went into galilee, sihui and babycakes came and join us. then vinee and celine came later on as well. my fish and chips were too filling. saw cherngshing's best freinds again, HAH. then later on walked out of galilee. we were nonsensing outside the arcade then i met cherngshing. three of us had no cash to watch movie so they wanted to rob someone or beg or something. hahahhaha.

we went down and bumped into sheryl precious, amanda pl and qianru daughter. exchanged a couple of words and hugs then we walked off. this time, just wanru olivia wenna kim sihui sumay and me. we walked to heeren, kim saw someone familiar. later, we decided to go kim's place! hahaha. took two cabs there, and the moment we reach. wanru and me sprawled onto the bed, resting. the seven of us watched meteor garden, hua ze lei <33333 i like his attitude okay, so hawt. i think i started the itching thing, i was rubbing both of my itchy eyes then later almost everyone seemed to be doing that.

later on dinnered and had alot of mashpotato and almost a dozen of carrots. i think i pissed sihui off by asking her : SIHUI CAN YOU HELP ME POKE A CARROT? about 6-7times? hahahhah. later on, walked with the others to the busstop and insisted on taking bus because its cheaper and more fun. hahah, the rest were puzzled. realized i didn't need to reach home until ten so kim dragged me back to her house. saw her brother again, heeeheee. we chatted a little on her bed then slept for a while before she sent me off at ten o'clock. reached home in time and washed up before drifting to sleep.

MY HAIR WAS NICE YESTERDAY MAN. IT WAS NEAT, HAHAHAHHA. WENNA AGREES TOO, HAHAHAH. (: okay, thats all. ZAIJIAN!

2005-10-06T18:29:00.000+08:00

SUGAR BUTTERFLIES ;

today was allright, PE WAS DANG FUN. i wasn't supposed to do pe but the yellow team was short of a player so mr francis allowed them to choose from the four of us sitting down who weren't having pe so i played (: decided to be goalie, for once. and everytime i caught the ball, i fell backwards off the bench! even geokying volunteered to stand behind me to catch me but i refused, HAH. thankgod every one of them were counted because i caught the ball first. hah. mr francis was retarded, when our team was short of two goals to win the other two teams, he came over to me and blocked my whole view! melanie and mr francis tried bullying me into sitting down, but i didn't. FER CAME TO MY RESCUE OKAY, MY TWIN IS DAMN SWEET. she actually said to francis, " DON'T BULLY MY FRIEND OKAY." then she took her icepack and walked off. HAHAHAHA, see the look on his face and you'll laugh.

our group came in second, but the game was fun. francis blocked me after saying to me, " BATTLE OF THE TWIN TOWERS " when he guarded me. that was, damn spastic allright. HAH, kelly gave me a MARS BAR, (((: cherngshing wanted me to eat it during ms yew's lesson but i didn't, zhenyi was gonna steal it from me if i opened it. geog was fun, mr sng gave our row the kitkats and the way he apologized was funnaye. haha.

stayed back after school with mer and sihui and kim. ended up only studying with mer, went through polygons and pythagoras theorem. i better, be ready for maths paper two tomorrow else i can just jump off the building and die. THE LAST ROUND, I GOTTA MAKE IT MAN. okay, thats it. my eyes are getting tired and my headache's worse, running off. BYE (:

2005-10-04T14:14:00.000+08:00

GIRL YOU'VE GOT ME BEGGING ON MY KNEES.

because once again, nothing's been meant to be. the chinese paper today was allright, i hope i score. it would be ulter saddening if i don't okay. there's not much to blog about today. yesterday was fun though. olivia wong weng yan made me want to slap her when she whipped the blanket away from me and sumay yesterday afternoon. no wonder i was so cold when i awoke. i just realize i suck at flashflashrevolution, i'm too slow. humphf.

okay, stomach pain alert. and i didn't eat anything in this few hours, damn.

2005-10-01T14:16:00.000+08:00

OKAY, MY BLOGGER IS STILL SCREWED. HELP. )X

yesterday was funny. went to tiong with wongwengyan, kellytan and celine. we were supposed to go to changi to meet wanru they all but decided the journey was too long. moreover, kelly and celine kept drawing lots on whether we should go and most of it was DON'T GO. heh. honey got her foot stuck in between the doors at the entrance of the bus. okay, not funny. (: we all couldn't decide where to go when we stopped at raffles, oliviawong was trying every single way under the sun to make us go back to tiong. then i wanted to go to bishan. celine wanted to go redhill to see someone, -coughs. kelly wanted to go home, -.-'' we settled for raffles place, burgerking. later on kelly went off, celine took train home. olivia and me bused home, the bus ride was interesting. the fat man was retarded, the bus driver was extreme. hahaha.

talked to babycakes on the phone at night. certain things, should be left unsaid. the past was interesting, the future now seems bleak. mum's friends came over, they made for me two ethnic earrings. (: i like, one's lime green and the other is black&white. XDD i haven't even decided on what to wear later on for the dinner. and we're leaving at five, i bet i'll be the last to leave the house again. holding my earrings in one hand while wearing my shoes, bawh. somethings never change, don't they. okay, thats all for today's post. my comp's screwed so daily posts wouldn't be updated, so byee.

2005-09-28T20:15:00.000+08:00

MY BLOG SEEMS TO BE SCREWED UP. AS IN WHEN I AM TYPING MY POSTS, THE ICONS ARE ALL, LIKE ALL OVER THE PLACE?! HAHAHAHAH.

MONDAY

went to watch red shoes with number one! haha, we could get into an nc-16 movie with our uniforms on okay. applause to sumay and me please, hahahah. before that, had dinner at galilee. the movie was freaking scary, dang. the part where the woman stick the sharp high heel into the guy's eyeball, that was damn gruesome okay. whaaliao, was terrified the whole night. sumay sent me home, she's so sweet. thats why she's my NUMBER ONE, WO AI SUMAY.

went out later at one am, wanru took a cab down to my house to pick me up. we were ecstatic okay, went town and was planning to see a movie when they informed us there was no movies after 1am. fuck please. haha, then walked to centrepoint, got wanru's energy bar [starts laughing] and mochi. we left a peppermint mochi in the taxi and we created the BOM AND BOOM PTE LTD. that night was hilarious, really. went to shaw centre, had mcflurry and wanru had fries. after that we went to sentosa, the taxi driver was irritating the hell out of me and wanru whilst we talked loudly about being in sec four and the stress of olevels. HAHAHAH, RETARDED OKAY. whaaliao.

we were sleeping on chairs in sentosa when rangers came and questioned us. took down name and ic number. it was annoying, only slept for half an hour okay. later, was one of the most err, stressed out parts. we couldnt see any taxis in sight, no cars at all. and the taxi serivice couldn't get us a taxi at all, it was a nightmare. then we saw this cab go to rasa singapore hotel! OHMYGOD, we were thanking god at that time okay. boarded the taxi and head straight for wanru's house, it was 4plus am.

slept on wanru's bed for less than an hour, then got up, arranged clothes and all then snuck out of her school to go to school. i was feeling irritated the whole day, went home and slept till this morning. i couldn't wake up in between at all, haha.

TODAY

left school with rachel chan and wenna. someone was irritating me off at the foyer, mouth can't be shut what. of all places have to scream at the foyer, fuck it. was talking on the phone with wanru when we were only 10metres away, hahaha. went to yoshi to study with wenna but ended up not studying at all. damnnit. part of kkn was there as well. then wanru sumay and kelly came. kim they all left after some time then the rest of us started talking. at five plus, wenna left. then had dessert at yoshi with KELLLY HAHAHA, SUMAY NUMBER ONE and WANRU SUGAR DIAMONDS. later on, sumay sent all of us off. heh heh.

okay, my week has been eventful so far. hahahah (: i can't wait till saturday, the weekend to come actually. heeehee.

RED BEAN SNOW ICE.

2005-09-25T16:55:00.000+08:00

i am at zhihui's house now!
HAHAHAHAH (: my angel's best friends are in the house. she has so many BEST FRIENDS OKAY. whaaaliao, its like GOT TALL TALL ONE, AND ATTITUDE ONE and more. hahahahah. okay, yesterday watched brothers grimm with dana cornell and kim. nothing much happened, my babycakes bit me till blood came out. sigh, i feel like i am gonna moodswing soon. heh, maybe not. i just told angel that i moodswing like i pee, and she started laughing. heh heh.

tomorrow's english exam. the last lap before secondary three, i have gotta make it. its the last round, DAMMN. i ate snow ice with angel today, and i discovered the joy of err, red bean! hahahahah, red bean is nice, ((: heehee, neos with zhihui as well. okay, replies to tags at the bottom.

amanda : HAHA, thanks but i changed it myself already.

sumo : i'll cut your nails first, they are much longer than mine. hahah.

xuewen : haha, i am doing fine. i hope you've been doing good too. heh.

sumay : NUMBER ONE !

joy : DROPS HEAD- yay, i love joy.

vinee : GOSSIP PARTNER, hahahah.

novelyn : HELLLLO! (:

xuewen : -.-''

honey : HAHAHA YESYES!

yuanling : -_-''

sumay : I ENJOYED MYSELF TOO (:

mel : NIHAO! (:

vinee : DIRTY LITTLE SECRET DIRTY LITTLE SECRET ! heh.

sumay : ((: YAY.

cherngshing : -.-'' innocent, my foot.

travis : EH MORON.

olivia : i love YOU TOO (:

ashh : KINDERBUENO PARTNER (:

xuewen : HAHA.

jaey : ((:

rarr : HUH?

angel : YAYYY(:

zhaolin : TALL TREE!

louisa : I MISS MY GRANDDAUGHTER TOO (:

elizabeth : HAHAH, took you long enough. haha, i missed you too.

yoshi ! ((=

2005-09-22T19:12:00.000+08:00

HELLLO.

today's a happy day, YAY. dragged myself outta bed to go to school and i'm glad i did so, else i wouldn't have been able to learn enlargement in maths class, the melting of ice in the south pole in geography and having fun with mer&co at yoshi after school at yoshi. zhen hao wan. hahahah.

school was allright, nothing much happened. honey kissed me thrice today just to get a picture right, she's so sweet though, (: recess was funny, zhihui and kim kept fake crying and pointing to one another saying the other bullied them. it was retarded lah. especially kim, her cries were, errrs quite convincing i suppose. fast forward to after school, met sunshine then we headed to harbourfront. we were saying that if *** and her clique that were walking in front of us went into yoshi, we wouldn't go in, hahaha. but thankgod they didn't, so we happily sat down and ordered the same food, though mer ordered hers without vegetables and it cost the same. mwahaha.

shortly after, babycakes sumo granny angel and marcella came! kim was in a irritated mood at first, complaining that everyone was irritating. tsk. resa shihui nicole and rena sat at another table to have lunch too but they left after that. started on geography homework and revison with mer. kim bought mer and me icecream and they were all laughing at the way i ate my icecream. the cone then the ice cream then back to the cone again. heheheh. before that, they were laughing at my laughter. damn, hah. zhihui, shahilia and marcella left later on around three plus. all of us revised with a little bit of fooling around. sunshine scolds people and bursts out laughing in the end, its hilarious watching her. later on, juli came to accompany lyanne home. all of us left at 640, kim dropped me off opposite my house then she went back school to be fetched home by her driver.

i love my sunshine, don't be so quiet all the time. i like to see your smile more when you're high. i love my sunshine lolly, oh so much. wo ai melissa tong chui yee man. heeheeeheee. thankyou for the carmel honey stick, i love youu.

crushed ///

2005-09-21T20:59:00.000+08:00

the flu is killing my head, but i guess i'm still going to school. important lessons on the morrow for maths and geog. damnnit.

nobody's home.

i'm kinda wearied now. school was allright, i don't really like the ex-angklung room, it kinda gives me and kelly the creeps. it gave me and cherng shing a bad allergy, sensitive noses. there's less than two weeks left, panic alert. recess was pretty funny, i suppose. and i love my sunshine lolly, melissa tong (x i really really love her. and angel too with her sensible advice and comforting words. :D they both cheered me up like crazy yesterday night when i was also in an extremely irritable mood. came back a little late, dropped by yanes house for a while then headed home for dinner and sleep. my nose's killing me, really.

study session with mer after school tomorrow, i look forward to that.

2005-09-20T16:54:00.000+08:00

` i saw your face in a crowded place and i don't know what to do because i'll never be with you.

` yet i still love you, secretly.

` so sue me, asshole.

RANDOM.
moodswinging alert.

2005-09-19T20:17:00.000+08:00

i don't know whats going on anymore.
i'm tired and i'm weary.
will everything just stop as time goes by?

stayed back today for a while.
walked down with kelly and vinee.
there's extra classes tomorrow, sigh.

CAUSE I SWEAR I'LL BURN THE CITY DOWN JUST TO SHOW YOU THE LIGHT.
i only hope you can just look my way, just this once.
everything's screwed even without you around.

shake shake shake it off.
this post's kinda depressing and random.
please, ignore.

shake it all off.

2005-09-18T21:44:00.000+08:00

my computer screen turned 180 degrees upside down. ohmans. its so irritating okay.

YESTERDAY

met babycakes in town before bumping into nic and her stead. she had a disbelieving look and voice, but hey i wouln't blame her. i would prolly also have such a reaction too but hers was a little too much. drama queeen, buhh. walked around, got irritated by kim's moodswings then she cheered up. i cheered up, saw some people in town. babycakes got me a rose from toys'rus. aww, (: at about five plus, met sumay and sugar diamonds in cine. walked about then arcaded at cine, ic hockeyed on sumay's team. sumay can ddr well man. haha, dined at yoshi. xiexie sumay(: then we bused to chinatown after meeting celine. celine wanru sumay and me bused to chinatown. met juli then we went into the streets to get lanterns and sparkles. came out off the alleys to meet jo kim and shihui.

fast forward to taxi part. it was fun. wanru and sumay went crazy, singing songs with a chinese slang. celine choked on pink dolphin. taxi uncle wound down the window for the noise to go out before asking us to shut up. we sulked, reached wanru's house. celine and me pushed wanru and sumay into the pool. got pushed in together with celine after that. juli got pushed in also, sorrry juli ))))= i feel guilty. cabbed home with sumay and juli later on and reached home at exactly midnight. so cool right? rachel tan says : YOU THINK YOU'RE CINDERELLA IS IT? -.-'' no comments.

i'm off to bed. tomorrow's a new day, (: i'm looking forward. OH DAMN, i haven't learnt chinese spelling. whaliao. i had fun yesterday, wo xi huan.

at sean krush's house (((=

2005-09-16T19:14:00.000+08:00

zhixian is a big fat MORON.
; sean

kimberly chua is the biggest moron on earth, she just refuses to let me remove the above message, i'm at her house. sitting on her big comfy bed, with the air con on at full blast. [ SEE THAT , *** ] lay off my babycakes man.
ahyah, its gonna be dinner time and i have no appetite but i can't just say i have no appetite and not go down and eat. so rawh, zhixian you're eating. damnit.
kimberly nicole chua sang at the top of her voice and peeped consistently into my phonebook and calender. she irritated me with her many questions of BRAIN CELLS AND SKIN CELLS. whaliao, =\ ASK NONSTOP ONE OKAY. there she goes, HEHEHEHEH-ing on the bed next to me before bursting into MANICAL laughter. she laughs like a freaking witch, laughing at my mistakes online whilst typing.

she's attempting to bite me again, whaliao. there's a present from her on my left side already =\ her dogs are much cuter than her, thankgod. my right side hurts, her silly bite, a little present from kimberly's teeth. instead of studying, we slept the whole day, lazing around on her big big limegreen room and slamming each others with puffy pillows whilst trying our best to take candid shots together. i'm damn jealous of her room, its like my favourite colour. she slept on my head for like, 10minutes. buwh. she stole my archie comics lah, whaliao. she has weird appetite man, tsk. who puts large amount of tomato sauce into her noodles soup? KIMBERLY CHUA HANYAN aka SEAN KRUSH.

KIMBERLY CHUA, WO AI WO DE BABYCAKES. (=

okay, i'm off to the toilet, kimberly chua better not touch my post. i'll strangle her and knock her teeth out. heh, nah.

i love my dear.
ZHIXIAN AND SEAN #7211 (:
; sean

because i knew i loved you before i met you.

2005-09-14T19:10:00.000+08:00

its all getting into my head like nobody's business.

i think back on the times we had ;
those memories no matter small or big ;
they remain in my heart always ;
because every single little thing you do matters to me ;
just the small act of holding hands made such a huge impact ;

sometimes i wonder if i really want you gone ,
i don't think i'm ready to let go.
or am i?

i reached home not long ago. stayed back with babycakes because she had councilling. not much stuff took place though girlfriend cut infront of me and sadly, i wasn't able to stop her from doing that. sometimes i wonder if i really have the strength and the ability to change the mindset of one, because i think i'm too fucking weak. i doubt i would be able to do anything that makes a difference.

noone seems to be able to believe we're together ; but do i look like i fucking hell care? i can't be bothered anymore lah.

wanru : i love you too, sugar diamonds (:

zhihui : its allright, we'll town together some other day allright? angel, i love.

honey : HONEEEY(:

xuewen : haha, i've been good. thanks(:

gen : hahahah, you're so funny. my blog's fated with your music. HEEHEE(=

yuanling : haha, you takecare too aye? [:

sumay : -pengsan. guess what, i've nothing to say. hah.

yane : pts, how would you know? don't be spastic. hah.

scars and slits.

2005-09-13T12:23:00.000+08:00

can't breathe easy.

mr francis : zhixian! going home?
me : yeah.. i've migraine and fever.
mr francis : OH.. you're always falling sick, make sure you go see a doctor.
me : (starts running to staff toilet) ok thanks... my ear hole's bleeding!
mr francis : [walks towards staff room] pierce and pierce.. go and pierce more holes lah! [laughs evily]

eh what the hell lah. i only have three ear holes okay. bawh, at least he's slightly nicer to me now. i hope i do well for the small test for volleyball this morning, (: my mp3's missing at home and i'm quite sure i was hearing it last night. oh cow man, i'm missing alot of classes today. sigh, and i'm very tired. sumay and wanru were trying to do something to me during recess but pinning me down, which i have no idea why when i was talking to rachel halfway. they just suddenly came towards me and held my hands tightly and i didn't know what they were attempting. i think i screamed abit too loud, mdm mas saw. then i chose that opportunity to escape without looking at her expression, man. it was kinda funny. babycakes, i'll buy you lotion okay? (: don't bother too much about it okay?

i think charlene teo is mean. rawh. thats random. and melissa tong is so sweet, i love my lollipop rush. and kelly's so retarded, english class is never the same without her around.

BABYCAKES'S HOUSE ON FRIDAY, I CAN'T WAIT.
when the aircon repairs, babycakes say i shall be the first to step into her room, YAY(:

the feelings i still feel for you run deeper than the scars on my hand.
they are still there, unable to fade away.
they represent the emptiness i feel deep down when i think of you.
its a pity that you're so far away and you aint gonna love me back.

MY EYECANDY CAME BACK FROM MELBOURNE TO SINGAPORE TODAY.
i will try and be a happy girl, heh.

2005-09-13T09:59:00.000+08:00

i'm in project work class.
i'm feeling kinda depressed, with a major headache now.

bring me back, from the emptiness i feel deep down inside.

2005-09-12T16:41:00.000+08:00

BABYCAKES, THANKYOU FOR THE HUGE BOX OF FERRERO ROCHER. (: I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, DEAR.

today was pretty avergae. i just detest the work load once more. maths and chinese. i better satrt on them soon. english paper in two weeks time. damn it.

to maysi : NEIGHBOUR! its alright, it really is. instead of brooding over spilled milk. its best if you put your other 100percent into your next two papers on wednesday. because i have faith that you can make it, DO IT. IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING, and believe that you can acheive the results you desire because i believe, you can. ALL THE BEST NEIGHBOUR, wo ai ni.